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[CuriousSteve (imported)]

I've been a member here since July a year ago, I've loved reading everyone's experiences and story's. Now, however I'm faced with a problem. I was very sure I wanted castration. My wife even used alcohol dipped needles into my balls a few times. I masterbate 1-2 times a day at least, almost always to pictures of eunuchs. My wife would tell me how she looked forward to me without balls, even though she wasn't into it. Lately my libido is waning and the amount of ejaculate I produce is minimal. I masterbate maybe once every 2 days. I thought I wanted no libido but I'm not sure. Now I'm kind of sorry it's going, but I still find eunuchs to be a great deal erotic. I guess I'm just looking for advice. Do I finish off my balls and not worry or do I go to a urologist and try to salvage anything that's left?

[goldwind (imported)]

Sorry only you can decide if you want to stay this way or not,just think about it and have no regrets.

And alcohol is one of the most painful way you know.

But anyway if you choose to remove them (as I did after alcohol injection.) you can keep some libido with hrt.

But on the kid side it will be another story

[anthonyg (imported)]

curious,

goldwind is right, only you can decide. There are many eunuchs who, after being castrated, choose to maintain some libido with Hormone Replacement Therapy (HRT). There are a lot of different ways to replace your testosterone once your testicles are gone, gels, creams, injections, pellets injected under your skin, but you'll have to pay for it if your insurance doesn't it. It can be somewhat expensive.

[SplitDik (imported)]

I think that castration and impotence will always be felt somewhat as a "loss". I mean there are certainly some moments when achieving some sort of pleasure from your genitals, and it is pretty ingrained to most guys' sense of identity (excepting those with strong gender dysphoria).

So it is really a matter of compromise: You lose something either way, but you can get something either way.

Personally your story sounds like your momentum is towards achieving castration and it would satisfy your obvious obsession and be true to your progressive damage to your sex organs. But as everyone says its up to you. My only recommendation is to not have any regrets -- accept responsibility for the choice and accept that nothing in life is perfect so be happy with however things turn out.

By the way, if lost sex drive does become an issue, you can always get testosterone replacement. You could actually then get back to sex drive levels of a young man, but have the castrated body you seem to also appreciate.