Hi

[CuriousSteve (imported)]

Not at all, I have mixed feelings about doing something to hurt or get rid of them. I want it but I don't.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Share with your wife.

Mine is still married -I think happily- to this old eunuch.

Life is good, and sometimes we even discuss going to nullo. Sometimes she likes the idea, and sometimes not so much.

I suspect that you might be amazed at how good it feels to discuss these things. There is always a danger in things so close to the soul, but even these are so important to share. A life has many existences, if one is lucky. Go for the next stage in life if both of you are sure you want it.

Otherwise be very careful what you wish for.

[CuriousSteve (imported)]

We talk, she humors me and tells me she's going to take them or inject them as soon as we are done building a family. but it's never been serious.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Listen to her. Seems she wants a family. One of the best in life. After you've done your fathering, maybe you two can go on to the next stage, whatever that may be.

You want to be a eunuch, a fine thing. She wants a family, a fine thing. A little timing and candor are the way forward.

FWIW, I'm a dad, and nutless. Fortunately life worked out in the right order, and all are happy.

[eafictionwriter (imported)]

Hi Hash, thanks for your reply to Steve. I am in a similar situation, maybe even worse. I've been fixated / obsessed with castration since puberty and am now in my 40s. At times it dominates my thoughts and I am actively talking with a cutter who wants to castrate me as well as cut off my cock. I am playing with the idea and part of me knows its a crazy idea to let a cutter castrate me, and the other half of me is fixated on the thought that someone out there is willing to turn me into a eunuch, something I have long desired to be. I really have no idea where my fixation will lead, it causes me great stress as I can think of nothing else when masterbating or having sex. If only my partners knew, they would be shocked -- and its something I could never, ever share out of shame and embarrassment. I guess my question of the EA archives is has anyone with a long term castration fixation who is actively making plans for castration ever been able to let go of the desire or fixation? With me it comes and goes, but when it comes it comes on strong and I go from fantasy to actively seeking castration fairly quickly.

[sparkey49 (imported)]

Eafictionwriter,

I see some flags maybe here! If you have shame and embarrassment now could you deal with reality of being a eunuch? Be sure you have a good understanding of the side effects even including depression and suicide. Maybe seek counseling and consider chemical castration methods first. Once gone they are gone for good which could be regretful or wonderful depending on state of mind. Best of luck on figuring out what is really meant for you.

[CuriousSteve (imported)]

Writer, I think if you have guilty feelings you are not ready.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Yes, be very careful what you wish for. Eunuch is good for me, but I have enjoyed many stages and adventures of life. Regret will not get pruned parts back.

In sort, no balls means no balls to see, and the loss of everything that depends on them, (Ok, there is HRT but YMMV). Permanent impotence, penis shrinking, maybe serious depression, anemia, osteoporosis, gynecomastia, body hair loss, all and more are possible and need a plan should they happen.

Read lots here, take advice and support here and be careful. Maybe it's for you, but first be sure.

[eafictionwriter (imported)]

Yes, be very careful what you wish for. Eunuch is good for me, but I have enjoyed many stages and adventures of life. Regret will not get pruned parts back.

In sort, no balls means no balls to see, and the loss of everything that depends on them, (Ok, there is HRT but YMMV). Permanent impotence, penis shrinking, maybe serious depression, anemia, osteoporosis, gynecomastia, body hair loss, all and more are possible and need a plan should they happen.

Read lots here, take advice and support here and be careful. Maybe it's for you, but first be sure.

I understand everything you just said, nonetheless castration seems to be on my mind constantly, and thinking about it is the only way I can become aroused. And as time goes on the thought of an empty scrotum seems more and more like what I want. My guilt about castration has mostly to do with the fact I am fixated on it. It feels more and more inevitable that I will go through with it one day. For various health reasons chemical castration is not a viable option for me, so of I go through with this it will be surgical. Just wondering if anybody has gotten to my level of obsession to the point of actively making plans to be castrated, and then has decided not to do it and been happy. The castration desire is powerful, and I spend countless hours fantasizing about how I will get this done.

[hopper44 (imported)]

ea,

This isn't really an answer to your question, but I've often wondered if I had thought of my compulsive need to castrate myself in more general terms as an addiction to self harm that I may have had different results. I was cutting and burning, which are the two most common forms of self injury, but in my case it was focused on my genitals. There is a lot of information online on ways to deal with self injury, and maybe if I had just thought of my issues in those terms I could have gotten my mind off of castration.