Tim dumped me not for another man but for another way of life. He dumped me not for a single lover but for many lovers. I was cuckold and it was torture, just extreme psychological pain is the only want to put it. But although I was hurting I also found the experience to be just incredibly erotic. For a time we maintained a friendship and I clearly remember one day when I watched him dress in preparation for a date with another man. I knew he was going to submit to this man but Tim was not completely heartless. My former lover knew that I was suffering so he took mercy on me and let me fondle his balls. That was all I'd be getting and I knew that his date was going to take him all the way.
I hated knowing that but at the same time I loved it. I loved thinking about Tim in the arms of another man. This is all crazy talk I know, but no more crazy than the attraction to castration. Is there a connection between being cockolded and castration fantasy?
