The third attempt or continuing the journey.

[fhunter]

To whom it may concern, on 25-th May 2015 I started androcur again.

I do not think I am going to document this journey on open forum here (ok, I may, but I have yet to regain my trust in the Internet ).

So this is just a notification for myself, to count the date, in case I will forget when I started.

[Hash (imported)]

Could you share why? I still use testosterone gel everyday, just one pump, nothing more. I sometimes skip if I feel I have to much "T" in my system.

[Frida G Cavic (imported)]

Good luck!

although It would be interesting know more about your new try. Anyway I wish you the best.

[jcat (imported)]

Good luck! I understand the lack of trust, just let us know how you are from time to time!

[fhunter]

Getting back to this thread. So, it was 7-something months. Stopping reasons are about the same as the previous time, I just didn't wait to the same severity of the issues. Except this time I dropped dose gradually, so it shouldn't be as bad as it was previously.

Now thinking on what I am going to do. CaCl2 injection looks like an attractive possibility. And I verified estrogen availability over the counter, so I wouldn't stay without hormones. Currently solving my other issues (and trying to decide if this is what I really want).

PS. And I am still thinking about social consequences.

[Frida G Cavic (imported)]

I also started hesitating but now after 11 months on hormones this january 10, I could not be more decided than ever. My firts approach with antiandrogens was shy, but when I feel the effects of no libido I loved so much that the next step was adding estradiol and I loved so much the effects too, being free of T was really adictive for me, when I reduced my antiandrogens the ugly T symptoms re-appered and made me crazy, I was not me with T, testosterone made me be someone who I was not, . Being off antiandrogens was really a nightmare, I back to them. I really loved too much my femeniztion that the third step was took 2 motnhs before for the 1st cacl injection and 1 motnh for the second. One importan thing than lead me to make this decision was that I did not want take antiandrogens anymore, they are very risky, and more in the amounts used for chemical castration, The liver is highly compromised with such a drugs and I would prefer stay away from them forever. Also I could reduce my dosage of estradiol. The fourth step would be orchdectomy, I´m sure that my liver and my budget will be happy for this.

Oh In regards of the social consequences I live in a very conservative town, people have a strong male centered mind. So before starting this I was very afraid from what my family will say, but you will not change noticeably If you are castrated, believe me, nobody or hardly someone, could see the difference If you are castrated or not. Even If you are taking a low-moderate estradiol dosge, people will not see easily your changes. The only issue for me was the buds, my breast have had a gentle growth so I can´t wear thin shirts because a few guys stare at them. So I need to use double shirts or a bra.

[Peter47-NL (imported)]

Getting back to this thread. So, it was 7-something months. Stopping reasons are about the same as the previous time, I just didn't wait to the same severity of the issues. Except this time I dropped dose gradually, so it shouldn't be as bad as it was previously.

Now thinking on what I am going to do. CaCl2 injection looks like an attractive possibility. And I verified estrogen availability over the counter, so I wouldn't stay without hormones. Currently solving my other issues (and trying to decide if this is what I really want).

PS. And I am still thinking about social consequences.

Thank you very much for sharing this. I admired and admire your courage, because I was and am afraid of the side effects of chemical castration. Injecting my testicles is for me no option. I'm not afraid of the social consequences of being castrated.

[fhunter]

The last few days were not good. Yesterday was better, but the week previous to that... mood changes and it felt like someone poured some adrenaline in the mix. Add some dysphoria, stir, do not shake.

Days were easier - put on the "mask", smile and go on. Plenty of distractions. Nights... well, that is where you come home and start thinking and end up unable to sleep...

Sometimes it feels that the only good thing from testosterone is more energy...

[Milkman (imported)]

Sorry, but have started injections into your testicles ? There are no doctors in Russia who do orchiectomy?

QUOTE=fhunter;263416]

The last few days were not good. Yesterday was better, but the week previous to that... mood changes and it felt like someone poured some adrenaline in the mix. Add some dysphoria, stir, do not shake.

Days were easier - put on the "mask", smile and go on. Plenty of distractions. Nights... well, that is where you come home and start thinking and end up unable to sleep...

Sometimes it feels that the only good thing from testosterone is more energy...

[fhunter]

Sorry, but have started injections into your testicles ? There are no doctors in Russia who do orchiectomy?

The last few days were not good. Yesterday was better, but the week previous to that... mood changes and it felt like someone poured some adrenaline in the mix. Add some dysphoria, stir, do not shake.

Days were easier - put on the "mask", smile and go on. Plenty of distractions. Nights... well, that is where you come home and start thinking and end up unable to sleep...

Sometimes it feels that the only good thing from testosterone is more energy...

No on first. No on second, unless you are diagnosed TG (at least officially).