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[Questioning (imported)]

Hi All,

I've been posting sporadically on the boards and hanging out in the chat room for a few years. Those who know me on here know that I tend to ask a lot of questions (hence the name!) and that I've done a lot of research and prep before committing to castration. Those who know me also know that my partner's concerns have been very important to me and have been a big piece of what's holding me back. Well, the good (great?) news is that we had a talk recently and he conceded that he realizes that, given my continued fixation, castration is practically inevitable for me. This means that, though he still has some concerns, he's pretty much on the path to acceptance.

Happy as I am, I'm still not planning to rush in. I'm seeing an MtE-positive therapist who's helping me examine my motives carefully. The past few sessions I feel like I'm realizing more and more that my gender identity, though male, is more "castrated male" than "intact male." Progressive folks think of gender as a continuum, but even that's too simplistic for me (and many of the people I've talked to on here) because I don't see myself moving so much away from maleness and towards femaleness as I do making a lateral move within maleness. While some days the need to be castrated is screaming in my ear, and other days it barely registers in my mind, I feel like this sense of my gender identity remains fairly consistent.

I'm still a bit concerned about the uncertain effects of castration. Yes, I plan to take TRT; some people say it's as good as the real thing; some people say it's nowhere near as good as the real thing; some say it's even better than the real thing. I guess I'll just have to find out what it is for me. I'm realizing more and more that there comes a point where one has to take a leap of faith.

The only things I feel like I cannot compromise on are cognitive ability and function, and drive/motivation. I'm a creative professional. If I were to lose my ability to concentrate or think, or if I were to get lazy or lose interest in the things that I'm passionate about now, I feel like my life would lose its meaning. My understanding though is that this only happens to SOME eunuchs, and it's pretty much always localized to a subset of ones who take no HRT.

If any one is able and willing to weigh in on any of this--but especially the last paragraph--I'd love to hear advice, comments, caveats, and encouragements.

Thanks!

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Suggest read everything here. Many have made the journey and every life is unique. Chemical castration is often advised before surgery. If it suits, proceed, otherwise something has been learned and little harm done.

[micdavi24 (imported)]

I was castrated on March 15th this year and am on TRT. Honestly, I think I am better off since basically my testicles were pretty much non functional by the time they were removed. My T level was so low that it was virtually at castrate level.

However looking back on the time when they used to function as they should and comparing to now, I can quite honestly say that I can find no difference in libido, drive, energy or any other area of my life.

Just my 2c worth.

[Kangan2008 (imported)]

I'm still a bit concerned about the uncertain effects of castration.

The only things I feel like I cannot compromise on are cognitive ability and function, and drive/motivation. I'm a creative professional. If I were to lose my ability to concentrate or think, or if I were to get lazy or lose interest in the things that I'm passionate about now, I feel like my life would lose its meaning. My understanding though is that this only happens to SOME eunuchs, and it's pretty much always localized to a subset of ones who take no HRT.

If any one is able and willing to weigh in on any of this--but especially the last paragraph--I'd love to hear advice, comments, caveats, and encouragements.

Thanks!

I found that my cognitive ability and drive were enhanced by castration. As a (former) sex addict, my life was disrupted by intruding sexual thoughts and bad behaviors. After castration, I was able to enjoy life fully.

[nutme248 (imported)]

Questioning,

You sound alot like me. Part of me really wants castration for variuous reasons and yet , I am afraid of losing my cognitive ability and function as well as general motivation. As someone who deals with clinical depression, I have to keep in mind that low T is a cause of depression.

Nutme248

Hi All,

I've been posting sporadically on the boards and hanging out in the chat room for a few years. Those who know me on here know that I tend to ask a lot of questions (hence the name!) and that I've done a lot of research and prep before committing to castration. Those who know me also know that my partner's concerns have been very important to me and have been a big piece of what's holding me back. Well, the good (great?) news is that we had a talk recently and he conceded that he realizes that, given my continued fixation, castration is practically inevitable for me. This means that, though he still has some concerns, he's pretty much on the path to acceptance.

Happy as I am, I'm still not planning to rush in. I'm seeing an MtE-positive therapist who's helping me examine my motives carefully. The past few sessions I feel like I'm realizing more and more that my gender identity, though male, is more "castrated male" than "intact male." Progressive folks think of gender as a continuum, but even that's too simplistic for me (and many of the people I've talked to on here) because I don't see myself moving so much away from maleness and towards femaleness as I do making a lateral move within maleness. While some days the need to be castrated is screaming in my ear, and other days it barely registers in my mind, I feel like this sense of my gender identity remains fairly consistent.

I'm still a bit concerned about the uncertain effects of castration. Yes, I plan to take TRT; some people say it's as good as the real thing; some people say it's nowhere near as good as the real thing; some say it's even better than the real thing. I guess I'll just have to find out what it is for me. I'm realizing more and more that there comes a point where one has to take a leap of faith.

The only things I feel like I cannot compromise on are cognitive ability and function, and drive/motivation. I'm a creative professional. If I were to lose my ability to concentrate or think, or if I were to get lazy or lose interest in the things that I'm passionate about now, I feel like my life would lose its meaning. My understanding though is that this only happens to SOME eunuchs, and it's pretty much always localized to a subset of ones who take no HRT.

If any one is able and willing to weigh in on any of this--but especially the last paragraph--I'd love to hear advice, comments, caveats, and encouragements.

Thanks!