At what age were you aware of castration?

[Bentboi22 (imported)]

Heh, yeah, it was the late 60's and still a bad time for gay kids. Even people like my parents and the shrink I saw who wanted to "help" you could go horribly wrong. Fortunately, Stonewall happened in 1969, when I was 15, and after that you didn't need to fear arrest in NYC. But kids who were in the Bible Belt had it much worse (and in some cases still do).

[Chesleyt (imported)]

I suppose I was aware of the general concept at puberty (11 or 12 years old) just by thinking more intensely about my genitals. After all, they stick out from one's body just begging to be messed with. A few years later I grasped the thought that this was a terrible thing to do to someone - at nearly the same time I reasoned that the principal horror is the lack of consent and the use of force. At that time I did not think of myself as the subject of castration. The "moment of truth" for me came when I served with the army in a combat zone and heard all sorts of stories from other soldiers about castrations done by both sides to their "enemies". I became aroused by these stories and thinking about them. At the time I had a Chinese girlfriend who didn't think my reaction to castration was unusual or even undesirable. That removed nearly all of my inhibitions and I became determined to find out about everything I could about castration. --FLO--

i was 4 years old and wanted to crush my testicles i knew then that they made you into men and i didn't want to be like my father. i grew up on a farm and saw castrations cutting and banding i started to band myself in 6th grade if i knew what i know now i would have left the bands on until they fell off. I'm 52 now and lost my testicles this year to desease.

[cutnbulls2ox (imported)]

i was 4 years old and wanted to crush my testicles i knew then that they made you into men and i didn't want to be like my father. i grew up on a farm and saw castrations cutting and banding i started to band myself in 6th grade if i knew what i know now i would have left the bands on until they fell off. I'm 52 now and lost my testicles this year to desease.

Most farm and ranch males just can t resist trying banding on their own balls to see what its like. Good thing you knew enough to cut the bands off before they did permanent damage. All farm and ranch males should be taught about human catration at young ages to prevent accidental castrating with the castrating tools and half knowledge making experimenting on their own balls so easy and tempting do try.

Sorry about your medical castration. This website has tons of great info for medically necessay castrations of men who didn t want to end up eunuchs.

[Stevenator (imported)]

About age 15, in 1977 while watching Roots on TV where they gave Kunta Kinte a choice of having his foot chopped off, or his “manhood”.

[Philthelast (imported)]

I have an agricultural back ground, castrating pigs seemed to easy , a sharp knife and a bit blue liquid which I can't remember the name of . The pigs did not seem to bothered and got on with there short lives. I would have been about18 when I first got involved , and it stayed in my mind ever since. I would have been better off being castrated at 30 or maybe earlier 25. It was always in the back of my mind, when I got my pilots licence one of the places I wanted to fly to was Castre in France ( subliminal!). I remember reading about a religious cult in Roman times ,where the the would be priest castrated himself then running through the streets of his town , threw his balls in a house which meant they had to support him. I am not religious or want support ,but the thought of self castration appealed to me. I never dreamed that one day I would do that. A bit late but better late than never

[Stevenator (imported)]

I guess my response could have included my grandfathers farm, which those experiences were around the same time frame. He castrated a calf once that only had one nut. It was as big as my first. Haha

[BrianSanDiego (imported)]

At 11 I knew I was gay. However, as I went through puberty I always thought of myself as female, not male. I didn't want anything cut off, per se, but I knew my body wasn't quite right. I didn't really start thinking about castration until I read someone's personal story of castrating himself and how happy he was to be a eunuch. That was at the beginning of the internet and my first conscious thought that I wanted that too! As the world changes and gender has become fluid ... I realize how much I want to be castrated as I journey to female genitals.

[jamiepan (imported)]

I was around 10. I was semi-actively gay (fooling around with friends) but I knew I'd never change already; I couldn't see myself liking girls and it turns out I was right. But mixed in with this was a desire to be exactly half-way between a boy and a girl. I wanted the freedom to dress in girl's things (especially panties and tights, I was obsessed with them), the ability to attract boys, and to not be a girl.

Castration, never thought of in such a technical term at the time, was the answer. To me, it was just about being 'tiny' down there. I could stick my balls back up the inguinal canals easily, and a little tape made them stay, and I liked the feeling of my dick shrinking from being cold; that rubbery, slightly numb feeling when it pulled right in after getting out of the lake.

From that early age on, nothing got me (paradoxically) hard and big like thinking about being made soft and small.

[microeunuch (imported)]

As far back as I can remember. I do remember my first thoughts at age 6. Still very strongly emblazoned in my mind! I can tell you EVERY detail about the day. Not sure why the memory is so vivid but there is no doubt it is there until I die or lose my mind!

Brian

[Arab Nights (imported)]

OK. So now you have piqued my curiosity. About that day.......