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[geoffrey (imported)]

hey nullovult, here's the update: Since the doctor removed my nuts, I went back for a checkup and everything is healing up quite nicely. I can take showers now and do physical activities with no limitations. For the first couple weeks it was kinda tough, my sac was kinda of swollen and it was itchy and sore. Now the swelling has gone down and my scrotum looks about half the size it was, like a deflated balloon. There were "stumps" still in the scrotum for awhile, but they seem to have dissapeared up into my body and my scrotum is totally empty.

I am still happy I got nutted. I am amazed at how calm I feel now, it seems like nothing on the news gets me upset anymore. My cock used to always kinda be half excited and hang around 3" when it was soft but now sometimes it gets pretty small, closer to 1". I have ZERO sex drive now, I haven't gotten an erection in a few weeks other than maybe just a "softie" for a couple minutes that goes away quickly. I have been getting MUCH more sleep -- I always used to be horny when I went to bed and I would watch pornography and masterbate for hours. Now I just get into bed and fall asleep soon. And I used to get boners all night long, and I haven't gotten those at all, even in the morning.

I am trying to exercise more because the doctor told me I would probably gain weight. The only problem is getting motivated, and since the castration I feel tired at times, especially in the morning. Its tough to get up and go, but I just force myself.

I tried to masterbate last night to some porn, but it was like reading a phone book. My cock stayed soft, and after about twenty minutes I got it semi-hard but couldn't get it fully erect. I finally gave up and fell asleep. I probably won't try that again as its kind of pointless, as I've become pretty impotent. And I no longer feel that horny urge to do it anymore anyways. I have realized that the cock is really just the bodies' sperm delivery device, and by removing a mans nut, there' nothing more to deliver anymore. So my body is no longer using me as a sperm injector and making me all horny to do it, so I feel really free and calm. Once your balls are gone you really begin to realize how much a man's life is just slavery to delivering semen.

Its nice so far being free from sex. It's kind of getting hard to remember what all the fuss is about. And now even orgasms which seemed so satisfying just seem like sneezing or something when I think about them. Not sure what the big deal was about.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Good to hear from you. Kinda quiet for a while...

Seems you are doing well, though this first few months particularly has some adjustments to make. I found most worked out for the better. Hope you do too.

Yes, the major difficulty is regaining the get-up-and-go, but that returned after a few weeks.

[geoffrey (imported)]

Ya I complained to my doctor about the lack of energy but he says if he puts me back on testosterone i will start to get erections again. He says to wait at least a year so things "calm down" completely.

[nullovult (imported)]

hey nullovult, here's the update: Since the doctor removed my nuts, I went back for a checkup and everything is healing up quite nicely. I can take showers now and do physical activities with no limitations. For the first couple weeks it was kinda tough, my sac was kinda of swollen and it was itchy and sore. Now the swelling has gone down and my scrotum looks about half the size it was, like a deflated balloon. There were "stumps" still in the scrotum for awhile, but they seem to have dissapeared up into my body and my scrotum is totally empty.

I am still happy I got nutted. I am amazed at how calm I feel now, it seems like nothing on the news gets me upset anymore. My cock used to always kinda be half excited and hang around 3" when it was soft but now sometimes it gets pretty small, closer to 1". I have ZERO sex drive now, I haven't gotten an erection in a few weeks other than maybe just a "softie" for a couple minutes that goes away quickly. I have been getting MUCH more sleep -- I always used to be horny when I went to bed and I would watch pornography and masterbate for hours. Now I just get into bed and fall asleep soon. And I used to get boners all night long, and I haven't gotten those at all, even in the morning.

I am trying to exercise more because the doctor told me I would probably gain weight. The only problem is getting motivated, and since the castration I feel tired at times, especially in the morning. Its tough to get up and go, but I just force myself.

I tried to masterbate last night to some porn, but it was like reading a phone book. My cock stayed soft, and after about twenty minutes I got it semi-hard but couldn't get it fully erect. I finally gave up and fell asleep. I probably won't try that again as its kind of pointless, as I've become pretty impotent. And I no longer feel that horny urge to do it anymore anyways. I have realized that the cock is really just the bodies' sperm delivery device, and by removing a mans nut, there' nothing more to deliver anymore. So my body is no longer using me as a sperm injector and making me all horny to do it, so I feel really free and calm. Once your balls are gone you really begin to realize how much a man's life is just slavery to delivering semen.

Its nice so far being free from sex. It's kind of getting hard to remember what all the fuss is about. And now even orgasms which seemed so satisfying just seem like sneezing or something when I think about them. Not sure what the big deal was about.

Thanks for the update..I was particularly impressed by what you said about nothing on the news upsetting you.Could that be testosterone related do you think?I have had a terrible self-righteous sense of justice and "how dare they do that to me!!"..(or this person/group etc)..today I had the arising of such a feeling but it receded so that was nice but I did find myself feeling very down and thinking about intimacies..truth is though..in recent years intimacies have meant internet porn washed down with copious amounts of alchohol..which is no intimacy at all..and killing me not just physically but in everyway that makes life worth living...so...i'll sleep on it..frightened to go backwards as I'm sure i'll end up back where I was.My next plan was to go to the doctors and try and get a testosterone level check...I hope it's fairly low because if I'm still a long way from zero I fear I wont be able to approach zero without risking serious depression..I think I can cope with testicular pain for the time being,but not forever ,still maybe castration followed by trt would be possible?...When I was feeling really down earlier I was minded to jack it all in,but as I say..i don't want to go backwards...11.30pm here..better go to bed..glad I switched on and saw your post..cheered me up.(Oh..just realised I haven't said why I believe my t levels might be on the lower side..well smoking and drinking to much for the last 20 years plus I've been taking traditional anti-aphrodisiac herbs.I've experienced that dis-comfort and slight burning you described...might be all in my head but I don't think so..so plan is ..test...and if low..great maybe on advice move to zero with pharmaceuticals...but assume pain with them..so will have to move soon to castration / nullification or stop as I can't take that pain indefinitely...depression might be a problem..just have to see how it goes...worried that returning to normal t might be like a recovering alcoholic having a drink ie disastrous..anyway..doctors next..earliest appointment on the 2nd april..hope they're sympathetic..but if not and maybe in anycase..local lgbt trans group meets on the 5th so i'll go along and have a chat.Darn I hate depression..was feeling so good about everything too...Hopefull I'll sleep and tomorrow will feel better.Thanks for writing such a long blog Geoffrey

[geoffrey (imported)]

had a good checkup with my doctor today. he is very pleased with my healing, I'm still trying to get used to having no nuts in my scrotum. I definitely don't fill my underwear like I used to. The doctor told me I might consider getting circumcized at some point, as if my penis shrinks or retracts to much it can cause infections. And some men even get "invaginated" penis' after being castrated where the penis retracts completely into the body. But that sounds like it would take a long time to happen. Anyways we'll see how it goes, circumcism might make sense at some point.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

This is very good news!

No nuts in the scrotum is a new sensation, and some go for removal of the scrotum.

Most folks get some reduction in the penis after being nutted, though I've never heard of it disappearing inside. -A curious thought, though....

FWIW, I got a circ after losing the nuts, and no problem. It is easier to clean, but wasn't difficult before.

Not filling the briefs now? I don't mind, but some go for different sizes and styles of underwear, even a plain style ladies panties seems to suit some. Plenty of scope for experiment!