I did a really mad thing

[micdavi24 (imported)]

Hi Yoda, I did it a few months ago(1ml) and again 2 weeks ago(right 2ml) and this morning (left 1.5ml). Massively swollen the size of a tennis ball from and almond size! I am going to A&E tonight.

I too went the calcium chloride route but for a different reason. After 2 injections spaced 10 days apart, mine were damaged to the extent that my urologist took one look at my scans and told me that they would have to go. I am sure that if your urologist is anything of a doctor he will do you the favour of removing them.

[Kangan2008 (imported)]

Thank you Kangan, I am a believer too and the fact that you were awoken from sleep means a lot. My story is similar to your own then! I believe a testosterone free life would be perfect for me and on my journey when it has been really low is when I have been at peace. i am trying to remain in control of this and from EA I do get great strength. I did promise Talula that I would come for help after my last episode and so here I am.

Your post confirms to me so much and puts me at ease, I feel as if I have some angels looking after me, even some eunuch angels!! Thanks

Yes, there are eunuch angels out there. I know....

Patience, my friend, patience.... You will be healed in due course.

[jcat (imported)]

I never made it to A&E last night i had some work issues to deal with. I am going to see my doctor this morning. I am feeling ok. Thanks for all your comments and support it really does mean a lot. Trying to be patient!

[YodaNell (imported)]

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size of a tennis ball from and almond size! I am going to A&E tonight.

WOW!! Tennis balls. It must feel quite uncomfortable...or maybe even exciting! I truly hope that all your efforts will pay off in your favor soon. I do believe that your testicles are taking a real beating which will definitely result in their demise.

You mentioned that you were going to see your doc. (I don't know what A&E means), but should you not rather wait for your testes to shrink back down to almond size. Swollen testes will indicate your doc that they sustained trauma. Your doc will then wait to see if they will heal. Waiting for them to shrink and become hard as stone will indicate your doc that they are dead resulting in removal. Just a thought.

You know...it is the journey becoming an Eunuch which is so exciting. Enjoy it. Once your journey ends, it is an anti-climax. You have reached your goal...now what? There are moments I wish I still had testicles because I want to experience the Calcium Chloride thing...including the pain. There are times I miss the pain in my testicles...sounds weird, I know, but me and all the issues with my testicles have been friends for so long and now that our friendship is over, it is quite lonely. No more touching, squeezing, injecting, cutting, pain, banding, hating...it is a deserted country. So enjoy the journey.

[Uncle Flo (imported)]

A&E stands for accident and emergency a medical specialty and hospital department. The USA equivalent is Emergency Room. --FLO--

[jcat (imported)]

A&E stands for accident and emergency a medical specialty and hospital department. The USA equivalent is Emergency Room. --FLO--

I am clearly British Flo!

[jcat (imported)]

@Yoda, I have had so much Orcihtis over the years my doc is used to my swollen balls. Today he shook his head as he felt them looking for fluid and there is none. We shall see what happens.

It really was very big! It is slowly going down. Time will tell.

When my T has been really low, I have been really at peace and untroubled, but as soon as they start to recover and produce T I get very traumatised.

it is amazing how resilient these little orbs are and how determined to survive. A recent semen test shows I am still fertile..... Amazing!

[Energizer (imported)]

Jcat,

I know what you mean about having low T and the way it makes you feel. Mine is a bit on the low side now and I sure feel good.

[YodaNell (imported)]

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it is amazing how resilient these little orbs are and how determined to survive...

I absolutely agree. I said the same thing in my blog.

[jcat (imported)]

I absolutely agree. I said the same thing in my blog.

Indeed Yoda I remember your crushing experience!