Absolutley Frustrated!! Penectomy ! !

[Blaise (imported)]

It's a mean world. If the guy can't play, why should the gal?

If any wife want's her husband to let go of his sexual pleasure, she and he might won't to consider the same thing for her.

[Blaise (imported)]

fear, fantasy mixed with aging, fear of aging, fear of what I don't even know how to name come into play in these musings.

I have a penis that is no longer any good to me though it might become a source of pleasure and intimacy again. I spend hours looking at images of women without hair or getting shaved and tug away at my flaccid weenie. I have a girlfriend who shares that fantasy. I don't always know what to make our us, though I enoy our telephone consersations and sometimes visits to each other [we live in different parts of the country].

I have enough strange fantasies about the loss of sexuality and have had them long enough that they compose at least part of who I am. I have a kind of charged but frustrated sexual desire and fantasy life.

This board is intriguing to me. I enjoy the conversations, the ambiguities, and the energy here. I am amazed that what caught my attention at five and six-years-of-age still holds my attention.

There is something monstrous and evil about a woman [of man] not having complete sexual organs. And there is something fascinating about it too.

There is something fascinating and terrible about really facing the loss of one's testicles and one erections. I am uncertain and thrilled, afraid and intrigued all in the same moment.

On this board, I'm never quite certain what's real and unreal about me! Thanks for the images of clitless women. Somehow they hit home in an irrational way that I cannot name. I am horrified that this happens to women and yet I want to masturbate to the horrible images. If I could masturbate to them, I'm certain that I would.

I am intrigued by what others think and feel about these matters. I can accept that some of what turns me on would be an awful experience to most human beings. Still, I am intrigued that someone who considers himself tender-hearted feels this way. It's what Carl Jung said about accepting the shadow.

[happousai (imported)]

It's a mean world. If the guy can't play, why should the gal?

If any wife want's her husband to let go of his sexual pleasure, she and he might

[want] to consider the same thing for her.

In my case, I just desire to be nullified because (1) I dislike the sex drive and aggression caused by having testicles, and (2) I dislike how my penis gets in the way all the time, having to be adjusted when I change sitting positions, etc.

If I find a woman that I love in the future, it would certainly be a plus if she *preferred* me nullified. As to whether her vulva has been circumcised, either way would be fine with me. Although, I think there's something sexually alluring about a circumcised vulva. I think it looks neater, and there's also no labia to block the vaginal opening; she just has to spread her legs, and she's wide open. (If she was incapable of orgasm, then I might not have to give her cunningulus, though...)

[Blaise (imported)]

The lack of labia is beautiful. That is part of the horror for me that I find it incredibly beautiful. A completely hairless, clitless, and labia free woman is beautiful. But it must be awful to live that way!

My horror about not having a cock or balls or having those that don't really work is the fascination with some primal fear faced in the real world. It is the same fascination in knowing that a woman has stolen from her what belongs to her as a right of simply being a human being.

For my surgery, I got a body shave. It looks awful and feels even worse. Yet, I ought to have gotten a full body shave when I was a weight lifter (not body builder as such) and had trim, hard muscles to enjoy. Now, I feel and look silly!

[sag111 (imported)]

I think what is intriguing to me is how testosterone controles our mindes . With out it we are calm and more in control of our bodies with it we have all kindes of thoughts . Some of them beeing dangeries but we feel we need to do thies things regardless of how dangeries it may be .This is why i say to think every thing out befor you act on your thoughts and fantasies. For what you do today you have to live with the rest of your life so you better be sure of what you are doing.

[Blaise (imported)]

seems to calm me! Desire makes me feel good. It makes me feel complete. When my medications interfer with normal sexual functioning, I am unhappy, unfulfilled, and incomplete. Common assumptions about the effects of testosterone may be mistaken.

[happousai (imported)]

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When my medications interfer with normal sexual

> functioning, I am unhappy, unfulfilled, and incomplete.

A girl I know has said basically the exact same thing to me. She was on some sort of medication to manage menstrual symptoms I think, but stopped taking it because it decreased her sex drive and she didn't like that.

The weird thing (to me) is that she has a higher than normal sex drive and is somewhat frustrated because right now there's no one in her life to have sex with. Yet, she would rather have an unsatisfied sex drive than no sex drive.

[Blaise (imported)]

without libido were much better than the months of impotence. What bothered me about not having desire was that I felt less than human.

Still, it was pleasant having time (on my hands!) just to smell the flowers.