Joining EA is the first step

[desireless (imported)]

Hello you all.

I really hope to find the answers here and fulfill my desire. So for now, I'm not 'desireless' but who knows where this will go? I've been fantasizing about castration and things for so long but my joining this reputed archive is for me my first concrete step in that direction. Just entered the 50ies, the time has come to do something.

I'm so totally fed up with this fantasy which looked 'interesting' but an unattainable goal. Well it sure looks attainable now, thanks to this great forum. I'm now 100% certain the time has come to see it through once and for all. Get it over with and reap the benefits of being a real eunuch. In the sack things are pretty quiet now (age?) so why not put a permanent stop to it all? I think an eunuch would be a real good husband, and lover (yeah??) for his partner. Oh, and the jerking off, can't really stop but I've had it. Ejaculations, messy. Orgasms, nice but there's so much more. I truly believe that something else is possible and much more fulfilling. Especially if there is so much less desire and lust, fulfillment is so much easier to get.

All the symptoms, consequences of being castrated don't put me off. On the contrary, it's something I'm looking forward to as they'd confirm the success of my desire.

So the question of what has been answered. I'm positively sure eunuch-hood is the way forward. In my mind there's no going back now that my mind has been made up.

I'm a coward but nevertheless I have a high pain threshold. But injecting stuff, that's too much to ask. Going through the motions to get an orchie is pretty 'awkward'. I can't imagine my self telling my GP what I'd want. A trip to some Asian clinic doesn't inspire me very much.

Banding, done. But somehow it doesn't appeal that much any more.

Something like a burdizzo, or a similar technique is something in my sights now.

So now that you know what I'm looking for, I'm really looking forward to hearing from you and to the final result.

[~Tiamat~ (imported)]

Making you a better person and lover really depends on the person and what you and your wife see as "better"!

Burdizzo rarely works and banding is like playing Russian roulette, and unpleasant even if you're lucky. Haven't you considered a chemical trial?

[nullorchis (imported)]

Well, been there, felt that.

For me I would categorize my lifelong journey towards being a eunuch not as a desire, or fantasy.

It was an incessant inner need, a craving, a fullfillment that I desperately knew had to happen, but thwarted by the reality of the means to achieve it.

Not being able to obtain surgery, I took Siterone to dampen testosterone, which in turn would minimize DHT.

This was effective, but obtaining the drug was not easy, but what really put me off was the potential liver damage.

Thus, after way too many years of delay, and in spite of an almost insurmountable anxiety and fear, I literally took things into my own hands and took the plunge and proceeded with the alcohol injection method. This was before I knew of the calcium chloride method, although even now, I do not think I could bring myself to use that method.

Before I did this I was obsessed with NEEDING to be surgically castrated.

However, Once testosterone production was eliminated, being surgically castrated or not became a moot point.

At least for me, eliminating testosterone, not surgical castration , was the answer.

I think what surprised me most was that once my interest and ability in sex was eliminated, it was like the calm after the storm.

I did not miss loosing my sexual interests or abilities. Oh, I still enjoy looking at beautiful people, but I enjoy lovely roses too.

But naked, nothing, no interest, no arousal. I at last can not even arouse myself, or perform, and I don't miss it.

All of the tension, pressure, anxiety, frustration that was caused by testosterone, finally over.

Now, what I say applies only to me. Do not extrapolate it to your past, present, or future.

We are all unique. Take not what I say in anyway as attempting to encourage you to do one thing, or another.

Take your time.

If in any doubt, do not do something you might later regret.

[desireless (imported)]

Making you a better person and lover really depends on the person and what you and your wife see as "better"!

You know, without the primitive T-induced (aka thinking with the dick) behavior things can only get better.

Burdizzo rarely works and banding is like playing Russian roulette, and unpleasant even if you're lucky. Haven't you considered a chemical trial?

I'd try chemical but don't know how. I'd love to hear from a protocol.

[desireless (imported)]

@nullorchis, two words to express my opinion on your replay: Warmth & Thanks!

[jako9999 (imported)]

Just to say hi and good luck we are all here to help

[fhunter]

I'd try chemical but don't know how. I'd love to hear from a protocol.

For that there is an invaluable thread here (http://www.eunuch.org/forums/showthread ... feminizing).

Oh, and welcome to the Zoo .

[desireless (imported)]

For that there is an invaluable thread here (http://www.eunuch.org/forums/showthread ... feminizing).

Oh, and welcome to the Zoo .

I'm happy I'm with fellow 'animals' now and yup I found the 'chemical information'. Thanks.

I think it's indeed wise to give chemical a try though side-effects are somewhat worrying. On the other hand, they can't be much worse than a DIY job gone wrong. Androcur is the best candidate (though I'd want to avoid the boobs, they are quite well developed already).

What I'd like to know is what's the point of no return?

Sure it'll be different for everybody but what's the sort of time frame I'd be looking at to make sure it's permanent? Does that happen at all? If and when permanency has been achieved, can you stop with the chems?

I am going to see this through (I won't chicken out won't I) but I really don't want to stay on meds longer than strictly necessary.

[fhunter]

I'm happy I'm with fellow 'animals' now and yup I found the 'chemical information'. Thanks.

I think it's indeed wise to give chemical a try though side-effects are somewhat worrying. On the other hand, they can't be much worse than a DIY job gone wrong. Androcur is the best candidate (though I'd want to avoid the boobs, they are quite well developed already).

What I'd like to know is what's the point of no return?

Sure it'll be different for everybody but what's the sort of time frame I'd be looking at to make sure it's permanent? Does that happen at all? If and when permanency has been achieved, can you stop with the chems?

I am going to see this through (I won't chicken out won't I) but I really don't want to stay on meds longer than strictly necessary.

There is no definite point of no return, but anything starting from 6 months is getting there. The consensus is, that it takes about the same time one spent on chemical castration to return back to normal, if one returns there.

As for permanence, it is the case of YMMV.

[erikboy (imported)]

Just another warning in the list.

There is a chance (I don't know how frequently that happens) that after you quit your chemical castration you return briefly to normal and then suddenly become an eunuch. It is not known what causes it. It is not very common. It is observed among those who use propecia. And as I could remember there is at least one guy among us who have experienced that same effect. You have to know what risks you take. And this one is one of the most unpleasant ones despite is not very common, it probably hits you when you have decided opposite.