Estrogen

[Scottie (imported)]

What I am afraid of I really dont know. What I have always been afraid of is change. I have always been agressive and kinda angry. so I think that I have a fear of not knowing who I am. When I went through the emotional termoil it all came together when I started the estrogen. So now im afraid to go off it, but i must!!!!!!!! I will begin that process tommrrow as I already took my dose for the day. I also will stay on the androcur to insure the

t levels stay where they are. I am sure my balls are dead, becasue I can squeeze them, and try and hurt them but the little rocks do not respond with any kind of pain or discomfort. Also the sac is a greyish almost black cast to it. I really feel from the inside that they are gone. Take care love you all Scottie

[SplitDik (imported)]

Scottie,

There are at least two major aspects to sexual addiction -- the physical drive (related to testosterone) and the obsessive drive (related to seratonin levels in the brain).

When I went to the hospital last February (for my balls being injured), I asked to check in as a psychiatric patient as well. The psychiatrist immediately prescribed Celexa (which is a modern version of Prozac-type drug) and said that it treats depression and is known to also help with obsessions. Furthermore, a very common side effect is "reduction of libido". Guess what, my libido was under control very quickly! I went from injuring my balls daily to having only attempted two times over the last 8 months!

You have already done as much as you can with the sex hormones. I suggest you ask for a psychiatric referral, and ask to try Celexa or other SSRI type drug.

The effect is that the urges still arise, but they are easy to ignore!

I also suggest it to all others struggling with sexual addiction and libido control problems.

[Scottie (imported)]

Split dick, I alreday take ssri inhibitors and I am well aware of Sexual addiction.... the other issue is that I hold a Psycology degree myself. Eunuchs come in all shapes sizes and degrres ... now don't we.

[SplitDik (imported)]

Okay. But your impatience and with your continued obsession are continuing to be dangerous factors.

I think the one big hope for you is that obsessions usually fade after completion. So if your obsession is to be rid of your testicles then that will complete the cycle. However, you have to be aware that your actual obsession may run deeper (perhaps a body image issue, a sexual identity issue, a self-harm issue, etc.). In those cases getting rid of your testicles may not complete your obsession and you might progress to further self-harm.

Please engage an independent psychiatrist to guide you through this difficult time. Self-diagnosis is always too incestuous -- sometimes we don't see the forest for the trees.

[Scottie (imported)]

dear Split Dick: I wonder what you do for a profession???? Seems you know people very well. As a matter of fact, once a month each Psycologist, psychiatrist is evaluated by a senior member of staff. I actually love my body... It is beautiful. I am more intrested in how woman think and how Hormones effect that thinking, resoning, emotions, and how to understand them more than I ever been able to before. I am also am looking for the sexual feelings that are created while on female Hormones. These things are what is driving that issue. In time (a few months I will stop) when I have what I am seeking). Sexual feelings are also driven by body shape, hips dropping, stomach shifting, breast development, this is also of intrest to me, however, due to the causes and effects I can't push the envalope in this area. Nobody thats Nobody wants to be a SEX addict.... I assure you that I am, and I know it. It does flow howerver like the tides. The testicle thing and their removal is very important to me. Testosterone has driven me and has not been very compassionate. I wished to strip that element away and become more of a gentle and not so driven person. What I am finding is Estrogen drives us too!!! The remooval issue is one of representation. My testicles represent a one dimensional male. I have studied hard and havwe been tested and what the findings indicate is that I am both Male and Female in personality and all sexual choices, but I can be comfortable in this body. This is all a study into myself and into human sexuality. I am truly enjoying wellll...... most of it. Write soon, Scottie