I can't stand it im going to inject them again!!!!!!

[Scottie (imported)]

I can't stand the waiting. Now I went to have an MRI... What did the doc find???? Dead balls tha'ts what he found!!!!! I have another meeting on the 25th of November. If the surgeon says anything about tests Im going to inject my balls again until they disolve. They are dead but they are still there. I dont think it would be dangerous. I really am fighting this impulse but I hope to god that I can sustain myself without doing myself harm. I am in touch with Dr. Kimmel and I will run to see him as of my apointment with the surgeon here in town. so help me... one more tst and I just cant deal with this crap anymore. I really dont want to spend all that money but I dont care anymore the time has come and the time is now.. Other than all of this things are quiet as I wait to have my balls cut off and if I go to philly im having him take the sac also. Well take care, scottie

[Andrew (imported)]

I dont think it would be dangerous. I really am fighting this impulse but I hope to god that I can sustain myself without doing myself harm.

Pleaase Scottie, forget the idea. Let nature and the medical profession do their stuff. Yes yes, I know I know...patience is a hard thing for many. But I do believe the dangers would outweigh and benifit. Please Scottie, no more injections. I want you alive AND HEALTHY around here for many more years.

[Andrew (imported)]

I dont think it would be dangerous. I really am fighting this impulse but I hope to god that I ca

n sustain myself without doing myself harm.

Pleaase Scottie, forget the idea. Let nature and the medical profession do their stuff. Yes yes, I know I know...patience is a hard thing for many. But I do believe the dangers would outweigh and benifit. Please Scottie, no more injections. I want you alive AND HEALTHY ar

ound here for many more years.

[happousai (imported)]

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Now I went to have an MRI... What did the doc find????

> Dead balls tha'ts what he found!!!!!

If that's the case, there shouldn't be a reason why you can't get your testicles removed.

[JIM/JIL (imported)]

try this, A NEW DOC !!!!, that will see it your way. ( female, ? no vested intrest ).

jim/jil

[Sac_mec (imported)]

Hi, You don't explain the reason behind your MRI test but obviously, I guess, you assumed and a medical Dr or Urologist thought the MRI would provide necessary information - which it has; good.

Now, be a patient patient please. You will be treated with courtesy and the issues of your personal health will be the prime objective. No one can beat having "on board" the guidance and help of properly trained, qualified and legitimate Urologists and

the health system that backs that up, right back to your own Dr.

Wait and listen and of course seek advice from this source but

use the medical services to assist you. Good luck.

[Scottie (imported)]

Hi to all of you! I am as always touched by the concerns and the love of the group here. I have read all the mail and I am going to reply in one message, but reply to everyone.

Andrew, I will hold on and not do the injection thing again. In fact with my testicles being so hard I dont even know if the needle would go in. So not to worry. The impatients is an issue but somehow (and I don't know how I will hold on. So thankyou for your concern and I will take your advise most redily.

Jim/Jil I don't think I want to change docs now, but that would have been an option. The only 2 docs now is the surgeon from the hospital, which I see on the 25th. The other Doc is Dr. Kimmel. I hope I can do this locally, but If the surgeon here wants ANY more tests im going to Philly for sure!!!!

To Sac Mac: I hear you loud and clear and I have been trying to use the medical system for reasons of locality as well as Insurance. It is expensive to fly to Philly, stay over, pay outright for the surgery. Id rather stay here and let the medical community do it here. Your concern and knowledge is always welcom.

Robby Wow !!! what a letter! Let me tell you all that my T level is at a 6... FOR SURE!!!!!! I wish my agression would leave me. Now here is the rub.... maybe.... I am on estrogen about 8mgs a day plus a 100 mg patch for transformation. This may be fuleing my anger and agressiveness. I have been advised to get off all Hormones and let my body adjust itself. Even if my balls where still producing testosterone...... I am on 150 mgs of Androcur until after the surgery. So in no way are the T levels causing any problems. I have no intrest in abusing my body any further, any part or otherwise. Anger, rage, impatients have always been issues for me. I still have a very very strong sexual desire, and can, with the help of Muse or viagra perform quite normally. My desire is still to high so I was told to use 150mgs of depo-provera injections every 2 weeks. I think the best thing for me to do is to get off all the hormones and let my body down... and begin to experience the Eunuch mellowness. I think Im a bit afraid of this . That is why I sarted the estrogen. So thanks Robby and everybody. By the way your emails and messages keep me going so please write me and keep my attention busy please. Scottie

[Mac (imported)]

Please give us an update on how you are doing. Are your balls completely dead? Has your doctor decided to remove them yet?

[Scottie (imported)]

Hi Mac, Hi everyone: Just an update. My testicles are dead!!! The left nut is in 2 pieces inside the sac, the right one is triangel shaped and both are hard as rocks. They are no longer creating any testosterone or anything else. The scrotum is damaged also from the ulcers that the acid caused when the swelling was so big that they had to open and let some of the fluid out. I have very little pain, unless I stand for very long periods of time. I am going to go the The cleveland Hospital surgeon on the 25th of November for an exam. He will have all my records and test results. Here is my plan..... If he will operate without any new tests, then I will scheduel the operation and do it when he is available. If he wishes to screw around with tests and biopsies and blood work and counseling ect ect. Then I am calling Dr. Kimmel on the 26th and then going to see him and have the surgery in Philadelphia. Im not going to hesitate or do any thinking. Im just going to do it. If I go to Philly I am for sure going to have the sac removed too. NO MORE BULL SHIT!!!! So thats where I am.If any one wishes to talk chat post write or whatever I could use the mental support. After all you are the only ones who understand the story. Scottie

[Mac (imported)]

Scottie,

Certain tests are required prior to any surgery in any reputable hospital. They are for your protection and for CYA for the hospital. Take the tests that the doctor requires and get the surgery in Cleveland.