I have been a long time lurker on this website, registered fairly recently and thought it was time to introduce myself.
I have been curious of asexual people and the idea of not even desiring sex for some time and I have always wondered(and more recently desired) to be rid of my sex drive.
I have never had the courage to pursue any relationships, so excessive masturbation played its role and I feel bored and increasingly disturbed my sexual thoughts.
Would like to state for the record that I am not personally into the whole castration fantasy aspect, it is NOT a turn on for me, my interest right now would be at a curiosity level and I am contemplating a "trial run" as some of you nice folks have dubbed it to be.
I wish you all the best