From what you are writing, it appears you are looking to confirm your decision to be a 'real eunuch'. But, part of what you wrote seems to be a longing for what you once were.
I'm so sorry this happened to you without your knowing.
This site is a safe place for all eunuchs, wanna-be's, and fanciers.
Some are 'made that way', and some 'born that way'.
Whether it was a personal choice, or not; there are some things that aren't worth dwelling on. You're still young, and have life ahead of you.
If it is a physical body appearance thing (body disorder), then OK. There are plenty of those members here too, me being one. Body disorders CAN crop up over-night, though they typically stem from childhood.
Still, you are left with playing the hand you were dealt.
After studying the available literature on this new 'syndrome'; PFS just confirms my disrespect for the basic medical establishment. It proves that money is more important than advice and personal knowledge/education of the product being offered. I do hope that a good judge somewhere allows someone like you to live in utter luxury on a tropical island for the rest of his life . . . at the drug manufacturer's expense. I also hope that the good physician who prescribed the stuff to you will not be left out of the judgement. You better belive he had access to the European warnings in his desk references (on line too).
If you want to try for your 'old self', please at least give the pregnenolone a decent trial. I would suggest 10 mg to start, but no more than 50 mg. If you were royally 'tanked', amped-up, and easily spanked before PFS; I don't think 50 mg would bother you too much. Some people report head-aches at higher doses.
Up-front notice; it won't happen 'over-night'. It may take a while.
It took me weeks before I started 'feeling', and looking like I did when I would wake up 'randy and ready', or respond to normal stimuli. Before, it just felt like I was wasting my time; when I didn't feel like sleeping. I still don't always respond to 'invitation', but can go along with it, and feel satisfied. (I lost the ability to get a hard erection around age 25 - I got past that a long time ago.) The 'spare tire' is gone. I sleep better.
Don't forget about the TribulusTerrestris
and Ginseng.artisticlicense (imported) wrote: Wed Mar 20, 2013 3:38 pm (Tribulus terrestris) (http://www.vitacost.com/vitacost-tribul ... andardized) , Tongkat Ali (Eurycoma longifolia jack) (http://www.vitacost.com/action-labs-lon ... 0-capsules) ,
Most folks know what Ginseng (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ginseng) is good for, but Long Jack has chemicals that the male body recognizes as testosterone, but it isn't. So, your newly deformed body might decide to make a substitution. You need at least 1000 mg (one thousand milligrams) of ROOT extract. It needs to be 'cycled'; i.e., a week on, week off. Here's a web site with lots of info (http://www.sd-200.com/).
Tribulus Terrestris has been studied pro and con, in animals and men of widly varried ages. European studies are all 'pro', in people and animals. U.S. studies are 'con' for people, but 'pro' for animal. (Hmmmm; who bought who?) It's main chemical is protodioscin (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Protodioscin), which increases levels of testosterone, dihydrotestosterone and dehydroepiandrosterone. It increases mental desire, and releases nitric oxide (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nitric_oxide) to the penis and surrounding nerves (might = no numb penis).
It is a proven proerectile aphrodisiac that you should at least give a try. It does not work 'instantly' (2-4 hours, at least). And, because it can upset some stomachs, should be taken with a meal.
These things truely have helped me, and I hope they help you.