does castration change the desire for a penectomy?

[nullorchis (imported)]

I had a undeniable need to be castrated since puberty.

Not sexual reassignment, just castration.

It was not a fantasy, or something I wanted, I knew way back that I NEEDED IT.

And long before I knew the complexities of castration even attempted to do it on myself, with no success, and fortunately no damage either.

Once I belatedly learned how to de-testosterone myself via clear vodka injections, I achieved what I needed.

And in the process my NEED to be castrated waned.

I still want to follow through if at all possible and get castrated, but I no longer have an unwavering NEED to be castrated.

Loss of testosterone MAY eliminate some serious cravings. Or not. Just depends on the source of the craving; brain, or balls.

In the end I ultimately discovered my need came from below, and was not in my head.

[lust-ocd (imported)]

surgical castration does seem to have hugely reduced my former desire for a penectomy. Everything has shrunk down there anyway, and even looks non-sexual. Wow, it's just amazing with filthy lust gone.