The helplessness from a penis that doesnt erect is most exquisite. I have been on HRT for three straight months now, and my results can be measured every couple days or so. We are all looking for different results and actions here (and for different reasons), and everyone takes a different course naturally.
I am wondering, Old Softee, if you are sad because your penis does not get erect or if you enjoy it?
I am beginning to know the mental joy and physical frustration from not being able to get an erection. What you speak of, the throbbing occurs, but nothing happens in the penis. I have resorted to visual stimulations to help me (sometimes male genitals; most of the time non-nude photos of Black Women) and the lack of response is amazing. My penis just sits there even though I feel a turn-on rush. When I reach for it, it is totally small and flaccid.
Eventually, it does grow; however, and it lengthens without me really feeling that occur. If I take my hand away it goes limp immediately. Ive not had a rock-hard erection for many weeks now, but what I do get I can masturbate with. The most drastic changes are in my ejaculations. At climax, I can feel the pleasure; I grope for something to discharge, but only a small volume of runny liquid comes out.
Ive not been able to achieve clear water sprinkles like in MD again. At that time, there was still force to push the ejaculate outward now, it just appears at the tip and because it is so thin, it dribbles down the shaft.
Hopefully one day I will not feel the need to masturbate or to satisfy the curiosity of my bodys changes
but for now I am thrilled by the helplessness and near-impotence that I am experiencing. That alone turns me on. If and when I become totally impotent, I will probably desire to help get others off and to fulfill my need to be a servant and to obey a sexual superior.
- Jim
