Kira Piper
Re: Kira Piper
I am very sad to hear that. Kira was always fun to meet in the chat room. She will be sorely missed.
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I have always been openly transgendered and autistic. I cannot imagine ever finding a way to conceal those aspects of my life.
Came the third day of kindergarten, in the late summer of 1944, on the way home after school, walking beside my mother, we came to a major thoroughfare where we faced a red traffic light. A city bus came from our left and stopped in front of us, let off passengers, picked up passengers, and still having a green light, pulled in front of us.
By the third day of kindergarten, about a third of my kindergarten classmates had been so kind (pun intended) to me that two thoughts came to my mind in a fraction of a moment. The first was, those children could never again hurt me if I pulled loose from my mother and dove under the back wheels of that bus. The second was that my so doing would hurt my family a thousand times more than those classmates could ever hurt me.
During the first three-quarters of second grade, I was paddled my the school principle for not admitting to lying on command of my teacher, paddled in the manner of variable ratio reinforcement, until I responded to the horrifying terror of such paddling by becoming agitated-catatonic. Were I to guess, and a guess is, and only is, a guess, I would guess that the experience, taken as a whole. of being paddled, sometimes twice in one day into the horrifying terror of agitated catatonia for being both autistic and transgendered in utterly unmitigated defiance of my teacher's classroom authority, may be near the limit of the intensity of abuse that a transgendered autistic seven-year-old child can possibly survive.
I understand, more than I can ever tell in words, why some people find their lives having been properly completed before other people can fathom why.
I have known people who, to me, were hurt ten thousand times and more than I had been hurt; people who have been hurt at least ten times more than my suicide could have hurt my family; for such people, I am grateful for such mercy as can actually be found.
And I cry about that. And I cry about that. And I cry about that.
Came the third day of kindergarten, in the late summer of 1944, on the way home after school, walking beside my mother, we came to a major thoroughfare where we faced a red traffic light. A city bus came from our left and stopped in front of us, let off passengers, picked up passengers, and still having a green light, pulled in front of us.
By the third day of kindergarten, about a third of my kindergarten classmates had been so kind (pun intended) to me that two thoughts came to my mind in a fraction of a moment. The first was, those children could never again hurt me if I pulled loose from my mother and dove under the back wheels of that bus. The second was that my so doing would hurt my family a thousand times more than those classmates could ever hurt me.
During the first three-quarters of second grade, I was paddled my the school principle for not admitting to lying on command of my teacher, paddled in the manner of variable ratio reinforcement, until I responded to the horrifying terror of such paddling by becoming agitated-catatonic. Were I to guess, and a guess is, and only is, a guess, I would guess that the experience, taken as a whole. of being paddled, sometimes twice in one day into the horrifying terror of agitated catatonia for being both autistic and transgendered in utterly unmitigated defiance of my teacher's classroom authority, may be near the limit of the intensity of abuse that a transgendered autistic seven-year-old child can possibly survive.
I understand, more than I can ever tell in words, why some people find their lives having been properly completed before other people can fathom why.
I have known people who, to me, were hurt ten thousand times and more than I had been hurt; people who have been hurt at least ten times more than my suicide could have hurt my family; for such people, I am grateful for such mercy as can actually be found.
And I cry about that. And I cry about that. And I cry about that.
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Re: Kira Piper
MacTheWolf (imported) wrote: Wed Dec 12, 2012 4:52 am Sometimes it takes more courage to stay in this world and keep on fighting for what you believe in.
And sometimes, the greatest courage of all may be saying, however it can be said, "It is finished."
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She seemed like such a lovely, genuine person. I'm so so sorry to those who knew her.
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Kira and her partner stayed at my house for a few months at the beginning of the year, Kira was always so helpful, Funny, intelligent and full of ideas on how to make things work and ways to engineering, she helped me at work in many ways with graphic designs, and installing things with me.
She also introduced me to a wonderful musical artist "Lorenna McKennitt"
We did have our differences as well, however isn't that what makes a person special?
I was saddened by the circumstances that caused her and her partner to move on from my house.
I'm deeply saddened by her decision to take her own life.
She will be missed for sure.
May God be with you Kira Piper.
Ken
She also introduced me to a wonderful musical artist "Lorenna McKennitt"
We did have our differences as well, however isn't that what makes a person special?
I was saddened by the circumstances that caused her and her partner to move on from my house.
I'm deeply saddened by her decision to take her own life.
She will be missed for sure.
May God be with you Kira Piper.
Ken
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Re: Kira Piper
I haven't known her personally, just seen some posts here.
EA is almost like a second family to me, a strange family.
And it is always sad, when someone of the family dies.
Rest in peace, Kira.
Покойся с миром.
EA is almost like a second family to me, a strange family.
And it is always sad, when someone of the family dies.
Rest in peace, Kira.
Покойся с миром.
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It saddens me that we are often unable to know what heartaches people have
and cannot help them.
and cannot help them.
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Re: Kira Piper
fhunter wrote: Wed Dec 12, 2012 5:00 pm I haven't known her personally, just seen some posts here.
EA is almost like a second family to me, a strange family.
And it is always sad, when someone of the family dies.
Rest in peace, Kira.
Покойся с миром.
As strange as it may seem Fhunter your probably right. Ive never been as open and more willing to be honest with myself and others than here. a ok place to let out some inner demons I usually am unable to do with my local human friends or furs.
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Re: Kira Piper
MacTheWolf (imported) wrote: Tue Dec 11, 2012 8:50 pm Kira Piper, who was transitioning from male to female, died yesterday
Kira was a chat moderator and my friend.
She will be missed.
Mac
I took awhile to reply to this thread. I agree with Mac I never met Kira in "real" but we had some very good chat. I wish she had contacted me "sighs". A wise person told me once that suicide is a " Long term answer to a short term question". I know that it is more complicated then that..... but...if...more...would think.... of... that... sighs... oh well. Condolances to all of Kira's family and friends. Dave