Something a little different

[cogman (imported)]

I thought I had replied to this....but I probably wrote it but was distracted by work, its been very busy lately.

In answer to your question ...both...but one is out of the question now...and well there hardley seems to be a point to the other any more...I do find myself more drawn to femdom stuff when in this state....I guess the libido is not completely dead....but i tend to troll through forums than look at porn. I do have a familly situation....although i my case my wife would proably like to seal it away forever.

Anyways the 1/4 tablet continues and the cock remains asleep, I can honestly say it has not even attempted an erection for 10 days...its probably going to be a lot longer since my wife and I had a bit of a spat and are not talking at the moment....so i may go a lot longer than my planed two weeks this time. I must admit i was feeling a bit depressed about this fact but I am over it now....and feeling ok again now...

[cogman (imported)]

A little update, not a lot to say because nothing has changed. I thought the cock was starting to stir a few days ago but for the last few nights it has remained asleep. My wife and I are talking again at least but, but its now been 17 days since I last had a opportunity to test it. I do not know when it will be ...again I am in two minds...after so long without a orgasm...I am a bit frightened of the downer afterwards when it happans.

It seems 1/4 of a tablet is enough to prevent night time arousals which might be of interest to those in the chastity community, as it makes life a whole lot better in terms of sleep. There do not seem to be any other side effects that I can detect.....other than the cock does not get hard any more by itself at night.

Thoughts of sex, well again I believe I am sort of tempered which was my objective, there is no way I would be in these spirits after 17 days without orgasm had it not been for the chems, but that said...when I have done two weeks previously being woken by a hard cock 4-6 times per night creates a lack of sleep problem which is a problem in itself, so I am not sure if that is the only real benefit. I am familiar with the side effects of lack of testosterone, I simply do not have any and nor would I expect too on 1/4 tablet per day, but that said I am surprised that the cock has not bounced back at all, not even a bit.

In any case I find myself in more control. I still turn my head and look, but I know I can't do anything about it...and even if i did not have the cock cage on now I dont really know it would work still.

Has it changed the way I feel about my wife, not really I think I am more in control, but I still resent that she won’t be intimate…but more for intimacy sake not because of sexual urges and this is not something that can be fixed with chems unless one took a anti depressants but then I don’t want to be in a state where I don’t give a shit about anything.

It seems to take the anger away from lack of intimacy but not the sadness, but perhaps in seeing it for what it is without the anger one can better deal with it and accept that it is not lack of love rather a lack of libido and men are so good at confusing libido, sex and love.

I found that by literally ripping out my libido (the last trial where I did go to castration levels) led to a hole in my motivation that led to depression......I hope this time I am avoiding that....so far so good, I still have drive that seems to be refocusing...and I even made it through a major bingle last week...

[Paolo]

What is a "bingle"?

Please do take note of the depression and don't let it get away from you!

[cogman (imported)]

Thanks for asking....bingle in this context = argument with my wife where we did not speak for three or four days A vocal one only followed by a code of speaking absolutely only when necessary….back to normal though now.

Depression is very sneaky, it happens slowly over a period of time. My previous post possibly reads a little that way, however I am actually pretty positive, it also helps that this month has been pretty good for business…:) and that always helps.

[cogman (imported)]

Ok well after just under three weeks I finally got to see if it still worked...

Well it actually did......unfortunately because of the way my wife gets aroused , it kind of happened too quickly and ended up being a dismal failure...But in terms of hardness I think it was a little less meaningfull, and took a bit longer ...but it did get there, but had less control after been unused for three weeks.

Despite this I am in reasonable spirits, because I was asked not to reinstall the cage for a few days so we can try again (although to avoid temptation I am wearing it anyway but will take it off before bed until something happens). I did get a bit emotional that I fucked up...when I had the rare opportunity......some people will get this and some won't...but I only find sex satisfying if I make my wife climax...since she didn't I would rather have not.... I actually felt worse having blurted than before given what occured.

There was very little ejaculate but this could have been because I was desprately trying to stop it......don't know I did not try it out again as I would normally only because i wanted to avoid a post ogasmic depression

Still ongoing..and still no night time arousals only taking 17.5mg Siterone per day, not sure I really liked three weeks with no orgasm though, I did miss them, I still think its tempering the way I feel, but perhaps feeling a bit more emotional but not in a angry sense. I am still feeling my nipples to be a tiny bit sensitive ..they feel hot..weird I would not have thought on this low dose would have any impact there, then again the cock stays soft at night.

[cogman (imported)]

OK I was curious to see how long it had been since I last posted. Indeed pretty much after the last post I stoped taking siterone altogether, if only because I believe that even sustaining such a small dose was keeping me lower than my ideal place.

Also I have to admit my wife and I have been going through another rough patch...and i just dont feel like anything right now...so the cage has been off as well..

My libido is definitely lower, although I don’t think I am depressed, rather been a bit dark i think and a bit resentful as well...more so than I should be?...well I don’t think so.

Anyway even after sustaining such a low does and stopping near two weeks ago I noticed for the first time I thought a night time chubby....but no morning ones...so I wore the cage last night out of curiosity to see if those unconscious ones had returned....and the answer is ...well a bit....normally I would be woken 5-6

times a night and sometimes it hurts enough

you have to walk around till it subsides...last night I was woken by a slightly tight cage at about 4.30AM and then when the alarm woke me at 7..it was slightly tight...so I guess its slowly on its way back....and I have definitly felt like masterbating more but ...not really any more than once per day and sometimes missing a day

So if I am to continue on this trial now is the time to start taking just 1/4 of a pill ...crazy...that such a tiny amount can do this...

Undecided although at the same time dont really want to returned to the fully horned up state

[Jorge2008 (imported)]

Interesting, I'll be trying Spironolactone plus finasteride soon (as soon as I get the prescriptions). Hope they'd be as effective as your combination.

[cogman (imported)]

Update, I never continued the 1/4 pill, I ended up letting myself come back to normal. If I do this again it will be till night time chubbys go away then sessation until they start coming back, the micro doses seem to keep it down too well....it still goes against what most people find and I can't beleive that 1/4 of a pill per day could do so much...but it was ONLY after I actually stopped it all started coming back to normal...that said it did not take long at all this time to come back, only a few weeks, where the last trial I did it took about 3 months for things to return to normal....the endochrine system is a very very sensitive thing.....very carefull...be very carefull

I am thinking about buying a new really intrusive cock cage....that has a tube that goes down the urethra http://steelworxx.de/The-Looker-02-116p.html I am not sure I want to go to sleep knowing I am going to wake up rock hard in that thing..lol although other people claim its ok.