I'm interested in the theme, but for me it's more a fantasy, altough a recurrent one. I don't know if i could face it for real -i hope this won't bother anyone here.
I'm not sure about the zoo reference either. I prefer circus. There is always something going on to keep your attention in one of our rings (forums) All of it very entertaining.
I suppose the zoo analogy is due to the fact that when you go to a zoo, you see all kinds of different animals, and witness all of their different behaviors.
We most certainly are all different, and we all have very different behaviors and needs. Perhaps we are entertaining to watch... from a distance. There certainly are not two people on this forum that share the same story. Every one of us is a unique creature.
Either way Marcello, the fantasy is just as valid as anything else that goes on here. We fully support the fantasy as healthy, and welcome you to the fold with open arms.
As said, the important thing is to recognize the line between the fantasy and the reality. If that line ever becomes blurry to you, then that is what we are here for. We wouldn't want you to mistake the two, and end up making a decision that will ruin the rest of your life. I think we've talked more people out of undergoing the chop than we have encouraged anyone.
If it ever does become a reality for you, then our group is a very valuable place to get information on how to accomplish it safely, and minimize your risk.
No one on these forums wants to see someone die in a do-it-yourself, at home job. Terrifying.
Enjoy your fantasy. There is nothing wrong with it. It is healthy to explore. Suppressing those thoughts is the unhealthy thing to do.
I myself fall into the fantasy part around here. I enjoyed the fantasy LONG before I realized I had an actual problem that undercut my fertility. If it were not for the fantasy this site allowed me to enjoy, I'd probably be dead by now.
I do not know which came first. The fantasy, or the sterility. Was I fantasizing about castration because I subconsciously knew I was sterile, and my hormone level was too low? I actually think the fantasy came prior to that. I remember very clearly as a child, hating those dangly bits between my legs. I remember fantasizing, that I'd wake up with them gone.
I really punished myself for those dreams. How could any normal person think those things? Finding the Eunuch Archive was like finding an oasis in the desert. It was the place I could survive. Be myself.
You'll find a lot of folks like you here. We're all just regular people, and we wouldn't hurt a fly, or cut anyone's bits off if you handed us both the knife, and a willing victim. Yet we belong here, just as much as those who have lost those annoying nuggets between their legs.
I exactly feel the way you do. I am a gay bottom as well, to me castration is a recurrent fantasy as well... I'm yet not sure if i would dare it for real; therefore I am curious for the experiences of others around here. Hope you'll have a nice time around here! Hope we all get some questions answered here! Have a good time here and enjoy your fantasies!