another chem-castration trial

[Paolo]

All in the name of empirical research.

This is much like only using it for medicinal purposes.

[erikboy (imported)]

Paolo: I have read so many (partial) experiences that are not much more useful than you can read about Androcur on wikipedia. General, without details and without inner look. I know YMWV, but any detailed experience would be helpful. And of course I am so excited to feel everything myself.

And I am continuing. It is now more than 6 days on Androcur. Due to low amount of Androcur I can not keep up with high dosages due to low supply. Right now I am on 100mg per day for the second day. Feeling of weakness is significantly less and I don't feel tiredness.

I woke up with hard on today morning. Though it felt different today. It seems that 150mg a day is optimal dosage for me in the beginning.

during the day I have not had urged sexual thoughts which sometimes made me mad, as I was supposed to work. This has been this way since day 2. In that sense I feel relaxed.

Emotionally I feel stable and happy. But there has been no negative incidents either that could put my emotions on test.

I think that I am having hot flashes and feel cold at times. But it is so mild I can easily ignore them. It could be due to my generally good body temperature regulation.

It is sad that I could not measure my sex drive in numbers. But it is noticeably lower than before. The scale isn't linear of course. but if you could imagine non linear % scale then it is down to 20-30% from original 100%. My PA piercing seems to be just silly at times.

It is slightly more difficult to get hard and maintain hardness than yesturday. Amount of semen is less too. Again hard to measure. Unfortunately. But I don't feel sad or depressed about it. There is another type of feeling attached to lack of urge - feeling liberated. So it is for me.

[Paolo]

I was referring to the old joke about alcohol being used for medicinal purposes, and how you "had to" try and masturbate...in the name of research!

[Francis (imported)]

I am in the position that after prostate surgery my testicles essentially died and shrunk considerably. Blood test showed that testosterone levels had dropped to near zero. Since then I have been on testosterone injections every three -four months and can say that the results have been more physical than anything. I have become much more hairy all over my body and the hair has darkened considerably. I seel little evidence of any effects before or after the injections but can say that since starting the injections I have been phisically more fit, stronger and more agile. The T levels fluctuate from somewhat high down to low normal as the shots wear off but I dont really see any material variation other than what the tests show. Good thing I banded them down to the point of complete ineffectiveness and don't have a single regret. My life is better without themand health and strength likewise.

BTW Dr was never suspicious about the circumstances Just one of those things that happen occasionall for no known reason

[erikboy (imported)]

7,5 Days. I feel great. So great, that I am suspicious whether Androcur works on me. To know how much Active substance is in me I made an excel table that calculates accumulated androcur in my system, based on Androcur half-life and exact times I and dosages I take. So I can adjust active substance inside me quite smoothly. Tiredness and weakness was most felt when there was 260-310 mg in me. last 2 days that level has been around 160-210mg. And tiredness is almost gone. I amnot sure what is the reason. Is tiredness direct androcur effect or is it caused by low T. Whatever. Anyway, I slept exceptionally bad, had very little sleeping time, and before I had to wake up I woke up because of extreme cold I suddenly felt. That feeling was so intense that I was shaking uncontrollably and had to take a hot bath. Never happened to me before. Also it seems that I do not need that much sleep anymore. Sleepiness feels different. Thats strange.

There are less sexual thoughts for sure. But when I see someone attractive I still enjoy the view. Yep, I don't feel like I need to act, joy is enough. Other big difference is that I do not get aroused as easy as it happened before.

So, today the main question is, am I feeling an castration effects? Is 200mg too little for me? may be I should consider 3mg/kg to be more precise with dosage. Anyway. I am running out of Androcur soon and can not test it anymore. I have to leave some last tablets for slow enough phase out.

[vesal_mas (imported)]

Erikboy,

It's just a week. It wil have effect ! Just be patient.

I also had a test period with only 50 mg. I can assure you it did kick in.

Keen to read more about you ...

Take care.

Vesal.

[erikboy (imported)]

Yesturday I woke up with hard on, today there was no hardness. I am in the process of lowering the amount of the substance in my body. Generally I do not feel any different than before. No weakness or tiredness. Well, maybe there is little difference but not much. But what is changed for sure, is that I do not get this "buzz" feeling. Also if I look deep inside myself, there used to be compulsive sexual impulses generator. Now there is less such impulses in me and they are soft and easily ignorable. I don't feel like I have lost something. Instead it feels kind of liberating. It takes much longer to masturbate to an orgasm. Last time it took over 8 minutes. Before I was able to get off in less than a minute. Right now I do not know what is the situation with ability to orgasm, as I haven't done it for more than 2 days. And I don't feel like I need to. Thats it for today

[erikboy (imported)]

It is now 10,5 days.It took now 12 minutes to orgasm. Amount is less and looks different. Sleep feels different. And some tiredness has come back despite there is much less of Androcur inmy system now. Woke up with semi hard. Which is weird. As it has been either completely soft or completely hard.

Sometimes I feel inferior to other males, but when I eliminate emotions, there is no reason for such feelings. That helps. No signs of depression so far. Hot flashes seem to be weaker if they are what I think they are.

less sexual thoughts. Otherwise no big changes. These changes seem to happen very slow. Until you natice that now this or that is noticeably different than before.

[cogman (imported)]

Try taking a small does of finasteride at the same time ....taking androcur by itself seems to take ages to do anything, other than make me feel weak and old....but as soon as I added a bit of finasteride, it was almost like a switch. Then you can back the androcure almost back to nothing....well that was my experience anyway

[erikboy (imported)]

12 days. Sleep is a real problem. I just do not fall to sleep. I spent almost a full night lying in my bed with closed eyes. In the morning I think there was some very shallow sleep, full of detailed and weird dreams. That part was cool actually. There were strange flying machines in the sky, made of 2 parallel fuselages of different shapes and colors. I videotaped these things, went to work (not my real workplace) and placed camera on the shelf and told others that I will come back. And I went to another big house where I used to work but didn't have access anymore to inner rooms. So I took out a sleeping bag and tried to get some sleep on the staircase. Like a homeless. The dream went on and on and felt so real that when I woke up I wanted to go and retrieve the video recorder (I have none in RL) I left on the shelf

Otherwise I feel same. I have slept during day time, so I feel quite okay. It seems like a good sleep and little coffe can solve tiredness problem. Today I measured my fist punch force, which was 362kg. Not a world record, but not so many men had stronger punch than me. Actually few.

When I see someone attractive I do enjoy the view. But it feels different with no buzz in me.

No hard ons last 2 mornings. Well, only very soft semihard yesturday morning.

thats it for today.