Going female. When is the point of no return?

[_g (imported)]

It's now two months since I stopped my 1 month hrt trial (from 50mg Spiro to 200mg/4mg Progynova) and I'm still not where I was before. But it's hard to objectively judge changes because on the trial I was like "when is it happening" and now I'm like "when will I feel like my old self".

But the main annoying thing is that I feel and get more tired. I don't have a steady job atm. When I work full-time in july this could get a serious problem. I sleep really long but I still feel tired throughout the day and activities make me tired really fast.

Libido is also not recovered. Before the trial I masturbated at least 3 times a day. I just couldn't sleep without it. Now I maybe do it once or twice a day but mainly to see how it feels and I often loose interest throughout it. Erections are often not as hard as before and semen volume and quality is lacking. Sexual thoughts are also clouded. I still strongly react to sexual triggers but it's hard to stay focussed now. Also my short term memory got really bad whereas I think about visiting a website and two seconds later I forgot which it was.

I'm thinking about visiting and endo or urologist but I don't know which is better. Also I don't know if I should tell them the whole story or just that I suspect having insufficient T. I also fear that they only offer me hrt with T which will further damage my natural production. I don't think hcg is a school medicine option. I made a blood-test before my trial so doing another one might show me how far I'm off.

Well the Spiro & Progynova have turned of your Testosterone production. You will need to see a doctor to get the drugs to restart the testicles, and your mileage may very. If the testicles do not restart making testosterone, you have some choices to make, 1) take HRT, 2) no HRT, or 3)take Female hormones and maybe transition to female or 4) a combination of all over time.

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[daifu-orchid (imported)]

The perceptual yardsticks we use to measure such agreeable topics as sex, politics and religion are the stuff of fine philosophy and psych speculation, historically, a minefield for the unwary. Whatever the effects of castration exactly, it seems that many have remarked here that we nutless ones are more inclined to accept or even welcome ideas of eunuchism, tg, cats and nullism than our intact brethren. We may have insurmountable difficulties reconciling ideas of what is acceptable and desirable for the pruned and intact. Navigating the best options in the endocrine battlefied above may be hard indeed. Perhaps try to decide what it is you really want from life now, and how that might affect your future. If the present goal and its consequences are acceptable, even desirable, get professional advice -I suspect endo is better- and enjoy the next stage of your life. He who hesitates.... But give it good quiet thought, then decide, then do.

[whyohwhy (imported)]

Well the Spiro & Progynova have turned of your Testosterone production. You will need to see a doctor to get the drugs to restart the testicles, and your mileage may very. If the testicles do not restart making testosterone, you have some choices to make, 1) take HRT, 2) no HRT, or 3)take Female hormones and maybe transition to female or 4) a combination of all over time.

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It got a bit better since that post. I seems that I'm almost back to normal although it's not a linear development. I still don't want to go to a doctor because I would have to tell my parents why I have taken a hormone-test (since they are paying it) and they know that I used mones in the past. I think I'm over the 90% mark in respect of being back but it's also difficult to notice the differences to before in that region. Important to note that if I get back to normal it took me three times longer than I was on the meds. (and it wasn't even a potent dosage)

The annoying thing is that the fantasies about castration and feminization are creeping back big time which leaves me a bit in a limbo.

[artiste xi (imported)]

Excellent advice Jessica, Tender nipples & breast tissue growth go hand in hand with the hormonal unbalance created by the oestrogen dominance.