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[bman2000 (imported)]

First , let me introduce myself

I am a married men , 38 years old with 2 girls.

I am from Venezuela so forgive my very bad English.

What I have is an extreme sex addiction with what I suppose to be an un diagnosed excessive compulsive disorder.

Gradually in the last 15 years it became worst and worst , I have become a fanatic of cbt , bdsm , submissive , had tried numerous type of prostitutes and mistreses , nothing could kill that urge , day to day urge.

Sometimes I have to masturbate 3 times a day just to take the edge off.

Obviously , it has a deep impact on my work , social life and family life.

Finally , after I found myself almost loosing my marriage bringing home HPV (god bless my wife for not making such a huge deal out of it)

I have decided to solve that problem.

I have decided to chemicly castrate myself for a start ( complete impotency ) and then take the monthly dose of 150 mg to keep testosterone low but enough to be able to have sex when my wife wants

Yesterday , after an extensive research I injected 150 mg/ml of Dop provera , after giving it 24 hours to make sure no critical side effect , I injected today another 150.

Also started on paxil 20 mg a day to take the edge off.

So far , a bit disappointed since I thought it would start to show some effect , nothing yet , still have my mind on sex all day , still have an erection , still had to masturbate 4 times.

I ll keep you posted and realy hope someone could give me some insight about the next 2-4 days what to expect on the short term

Is the dosage is right for that end?

any sugestens?

thanks!

Bman

[bman2000 (imported)]

Day 3

Woke up with a woody and it was gone after 30 sec.

Don’t think it’s the depo , probably the paxil

Masturbated and it was extremely hard to come and wasn’t very satisfying fluid came out but very weak orgazem.

Defently paxil.

Bad news are: had the chills yesterday till noon , then I was ok. At night took paxil again and chills came back 1 hour later. Think it doesn’t agree with me.

Ill skip today’s pill and try tomorrow if chills will come back tomorrow than bad news for me

[bman2000 (imported)]

Third day ,

Further update.(night)

Had to masturbate only twice today.

Semen is clear , erection is still stiff

Chills are killing me , further research suggest it’s the progesterone in the DP

No idea, decided to go off paxil to see if it gets better or not and then decide.

Any ideas how to counter act some of the effect? Estrogen cream maybe?

(Cant get access to pills)

[bman2000 (imported)]

Update.

13 days into depo.

Shivers where defiantly a bad reaction to the paxil , got off them and it went off within 2 days.

I actually didn’t post because there where no notable changes.

So far have no side effects.

Good thing happened: My libido is way way down , 0 spontaneous erections unless I watch porn and even then a “softy”

Having some trouble coming , takes some effort and not much pleasure.

Masturbation rate got down from 1-3 times a day to once every 4 days .

Soooooo happy , I go to work and concentrate all day long

No porn brakes.

No day dreaming

Even looking a women at her face not her breasts when they talk to me.

Only problem I see is explaining my wife my impotency once It will come.

Question I do have , will 5 mg of oral testosterone will help get erections back? ( once I lose them)

[unencumbered (imported)]

Update.

Only problem I see is explaining my wife my impotency once It will come.

Why would you not discuss with your wife your desire to lower your libido? You might discover that she agrees with you.

[bman2000 (imported)]

Why would you not discuss with your wife your desire to lower your libido? You might discover that she agrees with you.

looking for the way to do it , she is very dificult to aprouch on that matter.

[bman2000 (imported)]

By the way , penis shrunk ( when flacid ) 50%

When erect it’s the same , no changes at all

I presume the lack of erections made that.

Testicles are the same, no change at all , anyone knows if and when the should shrink?

[KimiRhoze (imported)]

I don't know if testosterone while on depo will do any good, if worst comes to worst, what about using a rubber cock ring to achieve an erection to please her?

[bman2000 (imported)]

I don't know if testosterone while on depo will do any good, if worst comes to worst, what about using a rubber cock ring to achieve an erection to please her?

If worst come to worst , I can always “stall” for a month with excuse of feeling bad etc , not usual with me but happened before ( spatially stress ) , I assume by that time it will start to come back

I understood that the loss of libido and loss of potency is do to t levels

Meaning taking it orally on very low dose should help .

Also red some guys used depo just to take the edge off , that’s what I eventually want to achieve , very low libido with the ability so satisfy.

( do want to get to total impotent levels but for 2-3 weeks )

ring will require an explanation witch as I said , will be difficult to give .

[bman2000 (imported)]

Ok.

An update on October 28

Penis is totally dead for 2 days now

Tried masturbating , could come but totally flaccid.

Problem: wife wants sex.

So I went and bought Andriol 40 mg

Took 80 mg on frieday and 80mg on Saturday.

Sunday , had to avoid my wife for the past too days.

Took 80 mg again today , 40 in the morning and 40 at 5:00 pm

At night we had sex.

Well , I had sex.

Had a super soft erection , could maintain it for about 2 minutes and it died.

She didn’t even feel me

Effects of Andriol went away in the morning , libido is a bit stronger but penis is dead again so the apparently effect of the andriol is very short

What I don’t understand is if sex offenders get 300 a week , shouldn’t I be getting my erections back by now?

Next weekend going to rais the does yo 160 mg , 40 in the morning , 40 at noon and 80 at 5:00 pm.

Hopefully that will make it right.

Here is the problem. How can one get into a state where he has 0 libido but can get erections when needed?

So much enjoying the week when no sex thoughts and no erection disturb me but cant loose my wife and don’t think shell want a dead penis in the house