Cainanite (imported) wrote: Mon Jul 25, 2011 10:38 pm I used to meditate quite a lot, back when my mood swings were pretty bad. Had a few OBEs. Some were amazing. One of those moments still sticks with me, a complete moment of pure calm. It still defies description.
As far as I know I never had an OBE, but what Cainanite says reminds me of a few experiences I had when I was 19 yo. I did'nt meditate, it just happened spontanious while did in the evening my homework for the art school. Suddenly there came a wonderfull, peaceful calm and love over me. Then I layed down on my bed and got the feeling my body, legs, arms and belly, was shrinking while my chest and head seemed to become one and eight times bigger. The feeling of love was a-sexual, all my feelings of anger and irritation and so on had gone, but I knew this feeling of love would not last for ever, next morning it would be gone. During these experiences I understood that in their source all religions have had this love, but what we see of all these religions is a poor deformed pretence. I also understood the source of the devine and love is inside me, inside our own hearts and minds. In some way these experiences frightened me, because it was so great and because I also knew as a catholic boy these thoughts were a heresy and you would have been killed and burned for it in the past centuries.
At the time I had these experiences, I was a 19 yo a-sexual virgin and in some way I believe my interest for a castration, for eunuchs and becomming a eunuch is connected with these experiences. Although I believe a castration is not essential to reach this inner source.
