janekane (imported) wrote: Thu Jul 07, 2011 7:55 pm When not all can be saved, it is wise to save what is considerately deemed the most important first?
I have given up parts of my body to save the rest of it.
Is that a useful framing paradigm for how to continue the useful work of this community?
Incidentally, some casual checking leads me to the hunch that Google has cached pretty much everything ever posted here.
I am torn on this issue myself. There are a lot of stories on the archive that appeal to me. I admit, I am most interested in those involving prepubescent castration. There are aspects of those stories that I find offensive, and many stories I cannot read because they are of a nature that disturbs me.
I have however written and submitted a story many others would find distasteful. Reading it again eight years after I first submitted it, I find many parts abhorrent. It is not the type of story I would write again.
At the time, the story was my way of exorcising my demons. Putting my thoughts down on paper got it out of my system, and no real persons were harmed. In this way I was able to move on with my life, and put those thoughts behind me. Something that was consuming me was excised.
Since learning of my hypogonadism, I have begun writing again. This time, instead of a short story, it is a novel. It again deals with the subject of prepubescent castration, and involves many sexual themes. This is not for everybody. I don't intend it to be. This time, I can more readily recognize the themes as metaphor and symbolism for what I am currently dealing with. As I write, I can see where I am interpreting my own inner turmoil, creating an extreme and running it out to a final conclusion.
Though written realistically, it is allegorical. It is a fictionalization of coming to understand what is within myself. As before, I hope to excise my demons.
I feel the stories posted to the archive do the same for their many authors. It allows the authors to come to terms with their feelings, and gives them a safe output that harms no-one. If you have ingested something poisonous, is it not best to induce regurgitation? (I am by no means comparing all the stories on the Fiction Archive to vomit. Many are very helpful.)
I find reading many of the stories very enlightening. Often the metaphor underlying the text educates me. It is also of great therapeutic value just to know I am not alone in feeling this way.
Would it surprise you to know that most of the people who write minor themed stories would be disgusted and horrified by real child molestation? In those stories, the author is not associating themselves with the molester, but the child. The author is the victim, not the abuser.
I needed, and need this outlet to overcome, or at least accept, my own inner turmoil. The Fiction Archive needs to exist as a safe outlet.
That is why I feel it should be behind an age verification and password. For those that find what is there offensive, they are insulated. For those that need it, it is there.
I only lament that I might not have even known the archive existed had it been protected when I went looking. If many years ago, when I discovered it by accident, it had been behind a blockade of passwords, I never would have risked venturing forward.
It is something the forum members should seriously discuss.