Shocked - I'm not male anymore

[Hash (imported)]

Yesterday, for the first time in many years, I decided to go swimming at a local YMCA. I entered the male locker room not really thinking about how different I was down below because its been the new normal for me for many years. However, absent minded as I was, I was shocked and stunned by what I saw, huge sacks and balls. I felt totally out of place and waited until almost everyone had left before I put on my trunks. I didn't feel comfortable with these guys and that's when I realized, "I'm not male anymore, not really." My penis didn't compare at all with what I saw, and really I wasn't looking initially, but when two guys walked by naked, it shocked me back to reality, their hardware looked huge. Compared to them I had nothing, certainly no balls at all and my shrunken little member barely peaked out. I didn't feel embarrassed, I felt out of place, it was strange. Now I'm glad I'm castrated, but the revelation was complete, the effects castration has had on me remove me from the male fellowship. I didn't even swim, not that I was embarrassed, I was? Reflective? So I left realizing that now I'd fit better in the women's locker room, but I knew they wouldn't let me in either, I still look too masculine on the outside. Now if I could just find the eunuch locker room!

[Milkman (imported)]

Your thoughts seem to confirm that being a eunuch is indeed the third sex. I have always felt "unmale" not male, but certainly not a female either, do you feel that way?

[Riverwind (imported)]

Yes I do in a calm sort of way.

River

[tugon (imported)]

One of the reasons for my castration was I no longer wanted to be male. I was not very comfortable as a male with all that T in my system. The last 13 years have been the best.

I walked into the lockerroom at the hospital to change into scrubs. A masculine young man came in to change and I watched him in awe. He seemed so comfortable in his skin. It was obvious that his mind matched his body. I found myself wondering what it would be like to be male. I realized at that time I have never felt male.

[XxEunuchEmoBoyxX (imported)]

When I go swimming I wear a bikini so I dont get stares, im not imbarrised I just dont want to draw attention to myself. I feel the same way just nothing there, I fit in better with the girls.

[curious_guy (imported)]

When I go swimming I wear a bikini so I dont get stares

Where you swim, do most of the other people swim in the nude?

[feedback (imported)]

I have felt as Hash has for years. That is why I would like whats left of my genitals removed so my body matches how my mind sees myself, not male,not female but no sex.

[XxEunuchEmoBoyxX (imported)]

Where you swim, do most of the other people swim in the nude?

At the beach or swimming pool. People dont go nude where iv been.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Your thoughts seem to confirm that being a eunuch is indeed the third sex. I have always felt "unmale" not male, but certainly not

a female either, do you feel that way?

I have felt as Hash has for years. That is why I would like whats left of my genitals removed so my body matches h

ow my mind sees myself, not male,not female but no sex.

Yeah...asexual, like me.

[Lesley (imported)]

If you feel uncortable in the male locker room, why not take estrogen and present as female. Then you could use the female locker room, descretly!