What pushes the desire for castation/penectomy?

[Hash (imported)]

Ever since I can remember, I've felt compelled and pushed to remove my testicles, which I've had done, and now, as a eunuch, I'm feeling the compulsion to removed my penis as well. I just can't figure out what's pushing me to do this. On the one hand, I know that's it's not quote normal to want to rid oneself of a healthy organ, so am I abnormal? Am I transgendered? Have I gotten caught up in an unhealthy delusional fantasy? Am I sane? I have seen several psychologists, not much help. I spent a week in a psychiatric hospital because I confessed to one of the psychologists that I was strongly thinking of cutting off my penis, but the desire to remove it hasn't abated. Some days I don't think about removing it at all and some days, like today, the desire is strong. I'm going to make an appointment today with another medical professional, urologist, etc., and at least prepare them for what seems inevitable. Anyone else feel like this? Where is this coming from?

[kristoff]

Ever since I can remember, I've felt compelled and pushed to remove my testicles, which I've had done, and now, as a eunuch, I'm feeling the compulsion to removed my penis as well. I just can't figure out what's pushing me to do this. On the one hand, I know that's it's not quote normal to want to rid oneself of a healthy organ, so am I abnormal? Am I transgendered? Have I gotten caught up in an unhealthy delusional fantasy? Am I sane? I have seen several psychologists, not much help. I spent a week in a psychiatric hospital because I confessed to one of the psychologists that I was strongly thinking of cutting off my penis, but the desire to remove it hasn't abated. Some days I don't think about removing it at all and some days, like today, the desire is strong. I'm going to make an appointment today with another medical professional, urologist, etc., and at least prepare them for what seems inevitable. Anyone else feel like this? Where is this coming from?

I would suggest you read about Body Integrity Identity Disordere (BIID) - you sound classic.

[Losethem (imported)]

Hash, your post pretty much describes me. I always had a drive to have my testicles removed (I did, am now a eunuch), and I've developed a desire to have my penis removed as well, some days stronger, other days not so much.

I've heard this happens often with we eunuchs.

--LT

[Caith721 (imported)]

Although I'm having the testicles removed in June, I don't feel any terrible dislike for my penis. Although once the nuts are gone, there's no telling where my feelings might go. Honestly, if I ever developed enough of a posterior to fully pass as female, I might want to be rid of the remaining bulge in the front of my pants. My other hope is that without the testicles, the penis will atrophy further and present no bulge whatsoever.

I'm scheduling an appointment with an endocrinologist in the next few weeks to get my T and E levels assessed before the orchiectomy. Then I'll do the same a month or two afterwards, simply for my own personal knowledge and benefit. If I experience further mental and/or physical changes, it will be helpful to already understand where my levels are.

[boytofix20 (imported)]

I'm still intact, so i don't know if i'm well accepted here. In my case my submissiveness is compelling for me about the thought to get fixed.

[kristoff]

I'm still intact, so i don't know if i'm well accepted here. In my case my submissiveness is compelling for me about the thought to get fixed.

You are accepted here. Most folks who come here are not castrated, but many have the desire to be. Welcome.

[tugon (imported)]

I'm still intact, so i don't know if i'm well accepted here. In my case my submissiveness is compelling for me about the thought to get fixed.

Welcome. I wanted to share that I was also submissive but that desire was driven by T. Once the testicles were removed and my T levels dropped so did my desire to submit. I have never used HRT. I went from being submissive to an outspoken bitch. Who knew?

[Caith721 (imported)]

I have never used HRT. I went from being submissive to an outspoken bitch. Who knew?

You say that like it's a bad thing.

[JeffEunuch (imported)]

While I also had good medical reasons to have my testicles severed and had wanted to for many years before I finally went under the knife, I never thought I'd develop a desire to have my cock severed as well. I think a lot about it as well. The desire comes and goes, which is perhaps the way it should be. I do know I could live w/o any dangly bits around the crotch.

Hash, your post pretty much describes me. I always had a drive to have my testicles removed (I did, am now a eunuch), and I've developed a desire to have my penis removed as well, some days stronger, other days not so much.

I've heard this happens often with we eunuchs.

--LT

[streetglide (imported)]

While I also had good medical reasons to have my testicles severed and had wanted to for many years before I finally went under the knife, I never thought I'd develop a desire to have my cock severed as well. I think a lot about it as well. The desire comes and goes, which is perhaps the way it should be. I do know I could live w/o any dangly bits around the crotch.

Could our brains be saying subconsiously that without testicles a penis is really no longer needed?

I had the thought at one time that the reason for my depression after my accident, along with complete loss of T for a while, was my brains realization that my purpose as a male had been ended. Or maybe it was just a chemical imbalance!