Well, the forum header said 'issues...'

[cbenedict (imported)]

So, here goes. Every few months i get a little obsessive about castration, etc. I know it's not a real goal for me but i explore it a lot because of the wierd contentment it gives me and at the same time i feel guilty.

Ya see, i was circumcised at birth but i'm restoring my foreskin. That's what confuses me. My main goal is to grow back a surgically removed part of my genitals, so why do thoughts, fantasies, and imagery of genital removal get me so interested and aroused? Anyone got any input?

[DeaconBlues (imported)]

I would suggest that you try a chemical castration for a few months, and see if it really is what you want. People here have many disagreements, but one point they all seem to agree upon is that castration is not universal in its effects, each man responds differently to real castration. You MIGHT think it is wonderful, or you might feel horrible about it, but either way, I really strongly urge you to try out a chemical castration experience, and KNOW before you do something that is irreversable.

There are MANY posts here, (several of my own for example) offering real experiences with chemical castration, and surgical castration.

I myself very strongly favor the drug depo provera, but most doctors today are pushing the much more expensive androcur. Both drugs are extensively written about here (e.g. "Depo provera experiences" etc.).

[KimiRhoze (imported)]

I think it's just like any other fantasy, perhaps it's a fantasy about giving in or a body mod fetish etc, I don't think chemical/physical castration would be right unless it is more than a fantasy. Fantasies can be enjoyed but always remember to keep a safe distance between play and reality.

[cbenedict (imported)]

I ought to have been more specific. It's the fact that i have -both- the strong urge to restore and still the arousal at removal that confuses me. With how betrayed and mutilated my circ makes me feel personally, i'd expect to be averse to enjoying castration and penectomy literature/fantasy. Closest i can figure, part of it may be a 'why not finish the job?' mentality but depression only explains the guilt i feel for my enjoyments. I'm just wondering how i can have such an extreme balance.