My Penectomy story from the hospital

[YodaNell (imported)]

My situation is exactly like that of 'whishtobe'. It is damn near impossible for me to orgasm. My prostate gives some pleasurable sensations but there is (at this moment) no way of reaching an orgasm. I suspect that the time for cutting off my nipples is very close at hand. I already procured some Lignocain. I must just find sutures somewhere and off they go. I'll also have to find a tattoo parlor to tattoo me some nice nipples or else I will get some weird stares in the gym.

[wishtobe (imported)]

Yoda, do not give up hope. last week I was pleasuring my wife, stroking and caressing her, and getting close and cuddling up close. Then I went and positioned myself on top of her with my head close besides hers, our two pubes were touching each other and I had a feeling as if I had a full bladder but different. Next thing I know I put my hand between my legs and I am coming like the dam broke. We were both blown away. Then she became practical again and asked how are we going to put a condom on him now................ It was the first time I have come since my operation, 7weeks later and no effort at all on my part.

So I went through a lot of my old links about penile cancer and found the following one.

http://www.mdjunction.com/forums/penile ... and-orgasm

interesting story of a person with penile cancer and finally gets the doctors to remove this testicles as he cannot come.

what is of importance is the advice of MDMAX who says do not give up hope and control your thoughts, and you can orgasm. That is what appears to have happened with me when I was completely relaxed with my wife. I am still on TRT, Sustanon 250 1ml injection every 3weeks, to keep me in form, but what is strange is that I no longer have the craving for porn or other things. I still enjoy the eunuch archive but my interests have completely changed.

We have just opened a new page in our life and we have a lot more to learn about how our bodies now function, and it is going to take time. I am really looking forward to the coming years.

Take care my friend.

[YodaNell (imported)]

Yoda, do not give up hope...Take care my friend.

So good to hear from you. Amazing stuff you mentioned. I my case though, I am trying to achieve the complete inability to orgasm. I am trying to destroy sexuality in my body. I only try to orgasm to see if it is still possible. I think I should try to orgasm using only my mind. It's going to take some practice.

I pray your future is blessed with prosperity in all it's forms. And do check in at times.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

Congratulations to both of you. Seems by degrees you're finding contentment.

So, a question to wishtobe, or any with something to say: Now you have had relations as a nullo, a eunuch and intact, how about a comparison review? How has the partner felt at each stage? I guess the question is intended most for those who wish to retain sexual function but lose the bits. We seem to have many contented eunuchs here, and penectomy crosses the minds of many.

[wishtobe (imported)]

Well I will try to answer part of the question.

When I was intact, sex was great but always on my mind. If I could not find a partner than I would masturbate, sometimes three times a day, As for a lot of us it gets out of control. When I meet my wife, long time ago, we were doing it all the time, we were young then, and wanted children. After the children came it was still good but not as often. After I got rid of my testicles it was still the same as I was already on TRT. So no big difference there. Once I started injecting my penis with ethanol, sex became impossible due to E.D. but I could still masturbate when the need was there. During this time testosterone would still be the driving force, but each time to a lower degree. Now that everything is gone, Testosterone is no longer controlling me in the same way, It keeps my body healthy like a man, I do not want to be like a girl, and at the same time I can really enjoy the close company of my wife. I think I could go completely without sex if needed but that would be selfish on my part. We married for better or for worse and there should be no reason why she should be deprived of me pleasing her.

That's about my 3cents worth.

[daifu-orchid (imported)]

A fine and generous spirit; I suspected that we needed to include the partner, and the partner's feelings!

I am fortunate with a spouse, who needs to be kept happy in all respects, but is adaptable. It might be that not all are so blessed, or even wish for a partner.

So, I suspect that there is much to say about sexuality transitions through life, and for here, that of intact->eunuch->nullo in particular?

[YodaNell (imported)]

Ok guys, so I finally went so far as to amputate both my nipples...last evening (17 June). I just could not stand it's sensitivity any more.

I took 2 insulin syringes (1cc each) and filled both with lignocain. I cleaned both nipples with plenty of alcohol swipes including the small nail scissors.

I firstly injected the left nipple with the lignocain. When it was numb, I took the scissors and simply cut the left nipple off. I was surprised by how easy it was to do it even with no pain at all. Some blood flowed from the wound but I took a cotton wool ball with elastoplast and dressed the small wound. When I searched for the nipple, I could not find it! I think I accidentally flushed it down the wash basin in my "panic" to stop the bleeding.

I did the same for the right side, making sure I will not loose the nipple again. I didn't and put it in the jar that contain my mummified genitals.

An hour later, I removed the right nipple's dressing because I want to clean the wound properly and apply bactroban and an elastoplast. That went well. Upon removing the left nipple's dressing, the wound kept on bleeding...not much at all...but it did not want to stop. After applying pressure for 20 mins the bleeding was less but still did not stop. No use putting elastoplast on because the blood will just ooze through it. So I took an ice pack and iced the area. After a few minutes the bleeding stopped and never started again. I dressed the wound as the other side.

This evening (24 hours later) I removed the dressings and took pictures of the wounds. Looks good. I dressed the the spots with Mercurochrome in order to dry the wounds. I did not elastoplast it again. Maybe one more night with bactroban, just to make sure it doesn't get infected.

I took pictures so it can be viewed here (

http://malebodymods.com/index.php?do=/YodaNell/photo/

view/20140617-172749-jpg/). (If you can't see the pics it is because the moderators must still approve it. But keep checking...if you want)

Now if, after healing, the rest of the nipple areas are still bothering me, I will get my plastic surgeon to remove ALL of it. He already agreed to it. Then I will tattoo "nipples" on my chest. Removing sexual stimulus from my body is getting closer to reality...only the brain remains, but I will deal with it on a psychological level.

Keep pure my friends...

[Losethem (imported)]

And for those following the link above:

1. The photos will be moderated, likely on Thursday or Friday (California, US time), as it is very late in the evening, I just saw them, and well, I have a life too (Read job to go to and sleep to have before I do this).

2. You won't be able to see them if you only have basic access. I wanted to warn about that to avoid the "I can't see them" posts here.

Thanks YodaNell. We appreciate the contribution.

--LT

[Losethem (imported)]

Photos have been moderated and approved on the site YodaNell placed them in the link above.

--LT

[YodaNell (imported)]

Photos have been moderated and approved on the site YodaNell placed them in the link above.

--LT

Thanks Losethem. Have a fantastic weekend.