Am i strong enough to go on?

[janekane (imported)]

The best way I have found, in my own life, to get out of an impossible situation is doing something about the situation. For me, it has generally been my doing nothing about an impossible situation which made the situation impossible.

Having stumbled through my life for over 70 years, on reviewing my life, there is nothing of my past life which I would rather had been other than it was.

There were those folks who made efforts to teach me to disrespect myself and the life I am actually able to live. For quite a few years, I was puzzled as to whether those who challenged the validity of the life I have been able to live were raising valid objections regarding my life.

Within the past twenty or so years, it has become joyfully-tragically clear to me that those who as-though challenged my personal and life validity were doing so because they were unable to fully accept their personal and life validity.

I have learned to allow, indeed, to welcome, other people's telling me of themselves and their lives, and, in so doing, tell me what they know and understand about me.

I have also learned to never, never ever, allow anyone else to tell me who I am.

Until I learned to accept my whole life as being the best actually possible life for me, I did encounter struggles with wondering what might be wrong with me, and with much of the range of affective states (like depression?) that tend to accompany wondering what might be wrong with me. Turns out, nothing was wrong with me. It took a while (decades) for that simple fact to make fully useful sense in my everyday life.

I am an ordinary person. I am an ordinary person who, like everyone else, is one-of-a-kind in forever.

My validity as an ordinary, ordinarily unique, person, is not negotiable.

[kyennamo (imported)]

im taking estrogen and progesterone milkman

[gayaquarius (imported)]

Gosh am I all to familiar with this feeling. I felt exactly like this a couple of weeks ago. I scared myself because the thoughts of suicide were so strong. I've been on 10mg of prog per week for about 2.5 months now. I work in the medical field and have had plenty of suicide awareness training so I identified my warning signs and got myself help. I wish you a speedy recovery and wish you the best in everything to come.