Attempts at a young age

[JesusA (imported)]

I am in the midst of preparing a presentation to a group of professional counselors on the need to take much more seriously any desire for castration in young people. While I have some data on serious attempts at self-castration at a young age, I would like to have more data on the subject to strengthen the point. Please either post your information below or send me a Private Message with it.

For those Archive members who made an attempt before the age of 20,

1) How old were you when you first attempted self-castration?

2) What did you do in the attempt?

3) What was the result?

I will make my Powerpoint presentation available to those who request it after it has been delivered.

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[CharlieIn413 (imported)]

I am in the midst of preparing a presentation to a group of professional counselors on the need to take much more seriously any desire for castration in young people. While I have some data on serious attempts at self-castration at a young age, I would like to have more data on the subject to strengthen the point. Please either post your information below or send me a Private Message with it.

For those Archive members who made an attempt before the age of 20,

1) How old were you when you first attempted self-castration?

2) What did you do in the attempt?

3) What was the result?

I will make my Powerpoint presentation available to those who request it after it has been delivered.

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That's great news that you are doing something to help.

I hope you are going to point out the dangers of alcohol injections and other methods that are used by both young and older men, too!

[kennath7 (imported)]

1) How old were you when you first attempted self-castration?

13 years old,

2) What did you do in the attempt?

wrapped many layers of yarn tightly around the top and bottom of the scrotom , took an ax head and started hitting with a 3 pound sledge hammer ,

3) What was the result?

stopped when I felt a deep pain , unraveled the yarn and it started bleeding mostly inside swelled to the size of base ball , got scared then went to er

[justabud (imported)]

I am in the midst of preparing a presentation to a group of professional counselors on the need to take much more seriously any desire for castration in young people. While I have some data on serious attempts at self-castration at a young age, I would like to have more data on the subject to strengthen the point. Please either post your information below or send me a Private Message with it.

For those Archive members who made an attempt before the age of 20,

1) How old were you when you first attempted self-castration?

2) What did you do in the attempt?

3) What was the result?

I will make my Powerpoint presentation available to those who request it after it has been delivered.

.

:dong::dong:

[justabud (imported)]

I was 10 & 11 and first used hammers and nails, in my father's basement shop - on the worktable - they needed a head or they would just get lost in my sack. Finally, my mother's sewing needles and then I burst my testicular fluid. It squirted out for feet. I just wanted to stay small and hairless. Nothing seemed to work - even the vise clamp.

[SplitDik (imported)]

I was 9 (and a half) years old when I first started hurting my genitals. I know I had been fantasizing about hurting girls genitals for about a year prior to that, and I personally think my self-harm started because I didn't like the thoughts I was having about harming girls (and women) and so turned the violence against myself (I have no gender identity issue, I am very male and really like it -- it was a reaction to my emergence of libido).

Anyway, the first real act of self-harm was on a fishing trip and we were camped on an island and when I was alone I started piercing my foreskin with several fishhooks.

My first attempt at what you'd call castration was when I was 11. My parents left me alone in the house for the first time and I took a cutting board and the main kitchen knife and tried to cut my penis off. I was able to make a serious cut in the skin, but started bleeding so badly that my "sanity" prevailed and I stopped, bandaged myself and cleaned up.

After that it was pretty much daily constant self-harm through all my teenage life and into mid-20s. But I guess that is info for another presentation ...

[vesal_mas (imported)]

It was mainly during puberty, 13 years and later.

I misused my testicles well before that.

Attempts were made with a surgical knife I got from my mom. She was a vet. I knew then how to castrate.

However I never got beyond some nasty cuts in the scrotal skin. It bled wel but healed allmost without scars.

I hope this will help you.

Vesal.

[twaddler (imported)]

1) How old were you when you first attempted self-castration?

12-yrs-old (Oct./Nov. 1992-ish, I believe).

2) What did you do in the attempt?

I tried to use a small rubber mallet to crush my testicles. It was very painful, though I kept on bashing, feeling that it *had* to be done.

Directly after that washed out, I decided to try to use one of my moms sharp new knives (she had made a point of telling me how sharp and nice they were). I was planning to do the cutting around the corner from an emergency room entrance. That never happened though -- I was too afraid.

3) What was the result?

That resulted in 14 more years of feeling a deep need to remove them!! Eventually some resolution was reached. I very much regret not being able to succeed when I was 12 (- or 15 or 21, etc).

[SplitDik (imported)]

One thing I wanted to add (and maybe you should have asked): I was never in any way abused, and never had anyone influence or suggest me in this direction. My early life was very idyllic and I was healthy, happy and successful in school with a nice family. My family didn't have any hang-ups about sex, weren't religious or strict or anything like that.

I just wanted to say this because I think most counsellors will assume that castration desire is a reaction to some sort of sexual abuse, gender identity issue or body dysmorphia.

I personally think that my castration desire came from a couple reasons. Firstly, I lived quietly and safely, before the days of video games and violent movies for kids. So I think as an early puberty set in, my natural male desire for adrenaline rush didn't have a good outlet and somehow the rush of such a taboo, painful thing was overwhelming became addictive. I would get such an adrenaline rush when thinking about hurting myself that my teeth would chatter just like in a cartoon. So there was definitely a biochemical aspect related to an adrenaline rush leading up to the act and an endorphin rush as I actually caused the pain. Whereas other boys might have been getting these hormonal needs satisfied with sports, I got it through self-harm.

A second facet to my problem is that it sprang from some frustration and discomfort of having sexual desires. Prior to hurting myself I had constant fantasy of my classmates and my teacher nude, with me forcing them to do sexual things to me. I think that due to my naturally nice and gentle nature, these thoughts were disconcerting to me and therefore I started to vent my frustration to the perceived source of these urges.

Anyway, I'd be interested in hearing the motivations and self-analysis from others who started their self-harm young. Were you abused, or having a good life at the time? How did your thinking form to the point where you took such a drastic act?

[erikboy (imported)]

One thing I wanted to add (and maybe you should have asked): I was never in any way abused, and never had anyone influence or suggest me in this direction. My early life was very idyllic and I was healthy, happy and successful in school with a nice family. My family didn't have any hang-ups about sex, weren't religious or strict or anything like that.

I just wanted to say this because I think most counsellors will assume that castration desire is a reaction to some sort of sexual abuse, gender identity issue or body dysmorphia.

I do agree with you that castration desire as many other abnormalities (well, whats normal?) mostly are not as result of any kind of abuse experienced in childhood. I can confirm that from my own experience and having seen how different children could be so very different despite growing up in exactly the same environment.

It must be so deep rooted in our minds. For example homosexuals percentage in population has remained relatively constant despite the culture.

One thing that is superficial and easily changed is fashion. Though many older people think of modern fashion as a silly way to wear silly clothes.