I'll explain a bit more about what I want and why:
I'm a lifelong cuckold who's desires go back to the earliest days with my first wife. Unfortunately, for her and for me we never heard of the lifestyle and never lived it the way that I wanted.
My lovely, young wife did want other men's cocks fucking her as much as I did (and she did), but we never could be honest and tell each other what we both wanted so we both could share her lustful experiences.
She did say and do a number of things that indicated what she wanted, but I just couldn't bring myself to tell her about my secret desire for her and other cocks in her.
So, these many years later after I learned about the cuckold lifestyle and understood myself so much better is the reason I want my little, undersized balls out of sight as if they were gone completely as I would love them to be.
If I did get castrated, as I would like, and lost my sex drive what fun would life be with no interest in sex? Sexually, I'd be totally useless even to any Woman who would enjoy me as her cuckold.
I love having my penis even though I no longer have any desire whatsoever for sexual intercourse. The kind of sex that I really want with a man or a woman is only with my eager, hungry mouth. That's how it always was for me.
Sexually speaking---and only sexually speaking---I have not considered myself a "man" in many years. Yes, I'm a male, but not a man.
Men---Real Men fuck women and I do not. I always preferred to masturbate my "thiny" so much more.
So, as a cuckold I should not have any balls that show. Having a
would be a perfect symbol of my cuckold status.
Also, I would love to be totally impotent with a nice, soft penis.
I talked to a local doctor and she did not have any solution to either of my desires. So, I just continue to push my little nubbins up into my body so they are out of sight and my sack is hanging down nice and empty.