A-1 (imported) wrote: Sun Jun 30, 2002 6:40 pm
Quote by Allison from the Personal fantasies board...
I am wondering, how many have a "beef" (nothing HINDU, mind you) with GOD that they are willing to share and discuss with the rest of us?
I will start out...
Me, my problem is this.
I feel like I have been taken out in the country or perhaps a desert in a car and then left. I mean, this world SUCKS and I didn't ask to be left here.
So tell me, how do the rest of you feel?

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For me, my real issue is not what or who God is, but what a few people insist that others believe what he or she is.
During my childhood I perceived that there was a benevolent God who mostly watched over everyone and occasionally made minor changes in our world for our happiness. I wasn't religious at all and felt that God only cared about how we treated each other rather than whether or not we had any formal religion.
But my mother, the Catholic schools, churches, and certain peers taught that I had to believe a certain way, and that this God would turn cruel if I didn't do what they claimed was his bidding. That included denying myself and what I really was during my late teens to mid 20s.
Those were my personal Dark Ages. Now I feel that I am well into my own personal Renaissance as I rediscover my real self and my potential to be all that I really am.
But now I have all kinds of feelings and memories from those dark religious days that I wish I could forget. I don't have an issue with the Christian God simply because I no longer believe in him. I find that most Christians mind their own business and keep their beliefs to themselves, but there are a few who try to shove their beliefs back in my face. Unfortunately, one of those people is my own mother. The real problem is not what religion my mom is, but what she thinks I ought to be.
I do not accept the Christian label for myself, because I don't believe in that. But that doesn't mean I should attack those who are Christians. Many of my TG/TS sisters manage to reconcile their faith with their gender, and remain Christian in their new found life. What I need is to return to the beliefs I had in my early childhood.
I strive to be indifferent to Christianity and all religion in general, becuse most Christians never bother me. People will always have varying beliefs and perceptions on God, so the real question is can people respect when others believe differently?
I don't have a problem with God, I have a problem with a few people who insist I believe what they believe.