Becoming the person that I am

[thraddash (imported)]

Hey Thraddash,

I'm not actually limping around, just walking slowly. A few of my friends know, while the rest of my coworkers are moving a bit slowly since they're hung over from a big festival right outside my office.. I've gotten to plead jetlag, a lack of good sleep, and a bit of a cold. I've been sleeping 11 hours per night, but thankfully I get to set my own hours.

How's your healing going? Mine actually got quite a bit better as I was on the plane on the way back despite the hard chairs in BKK Airport. It's also getting easier to keep clean.

Mine...the color of that thing is getting much better, but my clit is still bugging me a bit (especially on the left side; it feels like there's still a dissolvable suture there) and the swelling is still a bit high. I did feel around there yesterday morning (morning wood!) and I think that I'm going to like this once it settles down. In the meantime, I've still got to be careful and not overdo things.

Well I'm about 1 month in now. My labia majora have softened a lot, and is obviously a lot more pleasant. I'm also still very swollen, it feels like a ponche full of water down there when I walk around. But I think it looks loads better from a week ago.

Since the swelling has gone down a little I can feel a nub beneath the skin on the right side, I don't really have anyone to ask if this is normal? I think any normal doctor will first be concerned about the lack of a certain appendage.

I have also informed my best friend that I have done this, and he is just fine with it. But I don't want to tell anyone at work still, I don't think they are as open minded.

In my opinion, wearing a dress would be nice right now, so that the area wouldn't be so constricted. Maybe one to match my cute panties ...if only things were that easily accepted, LOL!

Keep well Gray, if you heal faster than me I'm gonna get pissed!!!!

Thraddash

[graylayer02 (imported)]

Well I'm about 1 month in now. My labia majora have softened a lot, and is obviously a lot more pleasant. I'm also still very swollen, it feels like a ponche full of water down there when I walk around. But I think it looks loads better from a week ago.

Since the swelling has gone down a little I can feel a nub beneath the skin on the right side, I don't really have anyone to ask if this is normal? I think any normal doctor will first be concerned about the lack of a certain appendage.

I have also informed my best friend that I have done this, and he is just fine with it. But I don't want to tell anyone at work still, I don't think they are as open minded.

In my opinion, wearing a dress would be nice right now, so that the area wouldn't be so constricted. Maybe one to match my cute panties ...if only things were that easily accepted, LOL!

Keep well Gray, if you heal faster than me I'm gonna get pissed!!!!

Thraddash

I'll race you. :p

Right now some thongs are fitting pretty nicely, but I can't use them throughout the day because of that sanitary pad. Some of my pouchier briefs do look a bit funny, but I'll grow used to this.

[thraddash (imported)]

I'll race you. :p

Although Im 2 weeks "older" than you, I think your previous endeavour has given you a head start, as you have less to heal from

[nonuts (imported)]

Thanks Fhunter, Losethem, and Jesus.

Never in a million years, when I first became active here about four years ago, did I think that I would also find true love here. THAT is the most surprising aspect of the past four years. True love is watching DVDs with your boyfriend and cuddling while his crotch heals from a surgery that you would have been fine without him getting, all the while fighting the temptation to go outside and get some sun.

I read this, and I found it so romantic. It's true how many guys go through something like this? Fly to Thailand to be with their boyfriend, who has just been modified in ways you'd never really considered your "boy"friend being.

As to fine without you getting done, yeah, but you weren't so that has a huge impact on how you'd be happy in life in general and with me in particular. The parts that are there now, maybe a bit fem, but, I'm hoping much less so as the swelling goes down, either way, you're happy with it, and I'll learn to be. It's odd to me yes, since my last close up view of female genitals was during birth, and thankfully I don't remember that at all.

[graylayer02 (imported)]

Thanks nonuts. That really meant a lot to me. You're a sweet guy.

I'm at T plus, call it over 3 1/2 weeks here. The longer-lasting sutures are still coming out and now I feel somewhat lifelike and even have a spring in my step. There's still a fair amount of gunk but not as much as before. The swelling is also beginning to go down. It's still a while before I do anything athletic, but this is just as I predicted.

I also switched my HRT to the gel since both my doctor and I were concerned about the spike-plateau-crash pattern which drove me kind of nuts. We'll see how this works out.

I'm also trying to think of names for my new equipment. My inner monologue calls it my 'vuvezela'. Does anyone have any ideas?

[Losethem (imported)]

I'm also trying to think of names for my new equipment. My inner monologue calls it my 'vuvezela'. Does anyone have any ideas?

Ack! Anything but Vuvezela! You use that you might just end up with a quickly "manufactured" male vagina instead of just the look of one.

[graylayer02 (imported)]

Other nominations I've gotten so far:

1. Slit (in German = 'Schlitz' which made me bust out laughing).

2. Hoo-ha (which sounds like something my grandmother would call it).

3. Coochie (sounds too ticklish).

4. Magic bean.

Also I've been reevaluating my current underwear and speedo collection. Ack! I'm getting mild cameltoe! Certain types of low rise briefs, on the other hand, look fabulous. I immediately looked online and found something called the cuchini which sounds like an Italian kitchen appliance but is a glorified sanitary pad. Sounds a bit sad but might be worth a try.

[tugon (imported)]

If I ever have a penectomy I will call mine my manstrate.

Man (ca)strate

[fhunter]

"Magic bean" - that sounds interesting. .

[Yman (imported)]

Other nominations I've gotten so far:

1. Slit (in German = 'Schlitz' which made me bust out laughing).

2. Hoo-ha (which sounds like something my grandmother would call it).

3. Coochie (sounds too ticklish).

4. Magic bean.

Also I've been reevaluating my current underwear and speedo collection. Ack! I'm getting mild cameltoe! Certain types of low rise briefs, on the other hand, look fabulous. I immediately looked online and found something called the cuchini which sounds like an Italian kitchen appliance but is a glorified sanitary pad. Sounds a bit sad but might be worth a try.

You've got really funny problems now!

I vote for No. 5: vulva -> voova

A more technical question: Do you think being already castrated made it easier to get the surgery in Thailand or would it have been the same to get all done at once?