KimiRhoze (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 04, 2011 8:06 am
I can't seem to locate the post, but I do recall someone posting that they ended up in the hospital and when it was scanned their testicle was rupturing due to an injection.
Xanadu62glbt wrote about his testicle swelling to a similar size and being in so much pain that he ended up in the emergency room. Abrax97 wrote about alcohol leaking into the scrotum and it swelling to the size of an apple and winding up in the hospital, where they removed both of his testicles and he had to spend some time in a psychiatric ward.
I had the same thing. My balls would swell up to 2 or 3 times there normal size and then slowly shrink back down to a smaller size than normal between injections. Since I have quit they have continued to shrink and get hard till there is not much left of them but a hard core. It works.
I decided this morning to stop the injections. I poured the remaining Everclear down the drain, I properly disposed of all the remaining syringes and needles. It seems that as my T level rises, my craving to destroy my balls one way or the other increases. When I was on Siterone, and in the early stages of injections, prior to starting HRT, I lost my obsession for castration, and was not so compulsive about doing injections.
I stopped the injections once, but as my T level increased, things got out of control.
By now, they should be dead; they feel dead. So, that's it, no more injections. In addition, and perhaps of similar importance, I am going to reduce my testosterone application to one half the prescribed dose. If necessary, reduce it even further until I am no longer under its spell.
I will increase the testosterone application to the prescribed dosage a few days or a week before my T test. I want my test result to appear normal so that my prescription will remain the same. Then I can use use 50% of 25% dose, to maintain a very low T level, which will save me a lot of money. Clearly when I was at a low T level I felt much better and was not so compulsive about injections and castration.
I think I will feel much better in a day or two when my T level drops.
Comments posted by others helped me get back on track.
I need to check out one of the other boards to see how replacement T affects others. From my experience normal T is too much T; it controls me. Reduced T helps put me back in control of myself, my thoughts, and my actions.
I still use a small amount of compounded testosterone to maintain stamina and to help prevent depression and osteoporosis. However, I experienced the same thing with testosterone, I had my left testicle removed way back in 97 and my testosterone levels dropped and I was given the option to supplement, which I did. This increased my desire to get fully castrated and I was in 2006. Dr. Kimmel fixed me up. Fortunately now, after using a low amount of testosterone all these years, whenever I try to increase the dosage, it back fires. My body rejects it, converts it into estrogen and my penis shrinks up where I have to pull the tip out to give me some length just to urinate. Then I feel a sort of sizzling sensation in my breasts, which I understand is the body's signal for growing them. So I just try to stick with the low amount I've always used. So if you start using a smaller amount of testosterone, be aware that your body will adjust to it eventually and you might not ever be able to go back where you where before castration. I like my present state and condition, however, even with low low testosterone (between 110-115mg) I feel compelled to have my penis removed. This is the same type of feeling that led me to become castrated, I actually think it might be caused by higher estrogen levels. Losing it wouldn't be a tragedy, but I can't use everclear to destroy it. Can you imagine injecting that into your corpus cavernosums? Yikes!
nullorchis (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 04, 2011 11:14 am
I decided this morning to stop the injections. I poured the remaining Everclear down the drain, I properly disposed of all the remaining syringes and needles. It seems that as my T level rises, my craving to destroy my balls one way or the other increases.
I still am holding onto my Everclear and syringes, even though my testicles are now too small and retracted to attempt injecting again without risk. But maybe just one more time? The urge to continue doing it remains; however, its less so now than before. I think that I'll always have this craving until they are ultimately removed. I'm not sure that my testosterone level has much of an influence on this desire.
SaraHughes (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 04, 2011 1:47 pm
-what is the first sign that this is "working"?
Many of those who did this first started with Siterone or Depro Provera and transitioned directly to the injections. So, for me anyway, the very little difference between when I was on Siterone and now tells me that it works. My body has had time to adapt to some of the changes over time but I still have very low libido.
Caith721 (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 04, 2011 2:42 am
Wise words from Hash. Don't rush to inject more when it's still swollen. It's best to wait until it's shrunken again, or you run the risk of rupt
KimiRhoze (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 04, 2011 8:06 am
ure and then it gets extremely dangerous.
I can't seem to locate the post, but I do recall someone posting that they ended up in the hospital and when it was scanned their t
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unencumbered (imported) wrote: Mon Apr 04, 2011 9:14 am
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esticle was rupturing due to an injection. Please don't
cw1911nr (imported) wrote: Sat Feb 12, 2011 9:30 pm
continue to inject once the testicles are
dead.
Xanadu62glbt wrote about his testicle swelling to a similar size and being in so much pain that he ended up in the emergency room. Abrax97 wrote about alcohol leaking into the scrotu
m and it swelling to the size of an apple and winding up in the hospital, where they removed both of his testicles and he had to spend some time in a psychiatric ward.
I have been on very low levels of replacement for years and every time I try to up my levels it seems to have a reverse affect on me than what it should. I wonder if I have the same problem as Hash has. Could my body be turning the excess into estrogen and how would you go about testing that? Anyone else have this problem?
