So now that i will start using Androcur. Im ugly and whenever i see a beautiful girl, i know that she will never ever like me and it makes me very very sad and feel terrible. I never had sex in my life. And i dont want to live like this:

1) Is this drug totaly kill my sex drive so that i wont care ...

I want to chemically castrate myself with androcur. But i dont want to gain weight or lose muscle. Is this even possible?