Thanks for your answer. You're right, no need to hurry and no need to have definitive solution. I'm currently in a therapy (had a lot without solving my problem) perhaps it will be better.

When I was 9, I realised with horror that I had "something" between my legs and hoped for an accident to be forced to be castrated.

Hello, I'm a 45 years old male, but since I'm 9, I'm feeling weird. I did'nt had conscience of my genitals before this age. My feeling was, that I don't need and want them. I started to want them removed. I'm currently on my way to figure out how it would be without any genitals, completely ...