I actually considered that, but it implies chemical castration, which in my case, is actually the opposite of what was going on.

I struggled with this myself on my forum profile, tho my case is a little more complicated. Like you, I would be a eunuch by hormones if not physically (hence my username) though I do use my prescribed T. I'm also gender-nonconforming, and have my penectomy scheduled in April.

As validated by my ...

This is something I'm actively working on with my therapist. I feel male, I prefer male pronouns, and I present as very male/masculine. But I've never felt "right" identifying as a man, and my body has never felt "right" with a penis attached to it.

Assuming all goes well, In 4 months, I will ...

I haven't heard the episode, but when my T crashed, it was many months before I found a doc who was willing to listen. I was crushingly depressed (ideating suicide), had terrible mood swings between sobbing and uncontrollable rage, massive weight gain (~100lbs), no energy, zero sex drive, hot ...

Just a quick update: my surgery is now scheduled for April of next year

I'm having a penectomy and perineal urethrostomy. My surgeon is calling it "genital reconstruction—male to nonbinary"— so I think there are a lot of ways to go with this sort of thing.

I’m a longtime lurker, finally saying hi.

My username refers to fact that some years ago my body quit producing testosterone, so I’m on T-replacement to counter the unpleasant (for me) side effects of being a (virtual) eunuch.

The irony of this is that I want to keep my balls... but for as long as ...

The medical view of this is starting to change. Surgeons and Therapists have traditionally acted in the role of "gatekeepers". My therapist has told me (and this is backed up by my recent experience with my first surgical consult) that this is beginning to change. "Gatekeeper" is starting to become ...

It's a strange feeling... somewhere right on the knife-edge between arousal and pain. And the dick feels as engorged as it can possibly be. Very hard, very turgid, and seems to stay that way for longer than normal.

Alas, I really don't like the feel of it, so having it played with wouldn't be very nice for me... happy to play when it's gone tho