I ought to have been more specific. It's the fact that i have -both- the strong urge to restore and still the arousal at removal that confuses me. With how betrayed and mutilated my circ makes me feel personally, i'd expect to be averse to enjoying castration and penectomy literature/fantasy ...

So, here goes. Every few months i get a little obsessive about castration, etc. I know it's not a real goal for me but i explore it a lot because of the wierd contentment it gives me and at the same time i feel guilty.

Ya see, i was circumcised at birth but i'm restoring my foreskin. That's what ...

Hello, new guy here, just thought i'd say hello. I'm a complicated critter stuck in the depths of middle america. I hope you'll find my input and interests agreeable! I look forward to an interesting time. (Is that a blessing or a curse, i wonder?)