Wow, ten years later, where are you now?

Sorry, a little bio on me:

Was sexually active way before 18, with men, at 19 with women. - submissive.

At 25 was married and crossdressing, part of calgary kink and gay pride. - still mostly submissive.

at 38 I feel I'm now missing out, not a part of any particular community. - enjoying dom ...

I've learned that pressing just above my clit, and massaging the flat muscle above gives me a different kind of pleasure.. that and anal orgasms..

At university, my therapist offered me both depo-provera (chemical castration) or a female hormone regiment. Both would alter my muscle strength, and the hormone one would be irreversible. I wasn't ready to make that change then, I'm still not now. I like men, I like women, but I've never wanted to ...