Ugh, I tried reading a penectomy story last night...I couldn't stop shaking, and felt like vomitting. I think this really is something that I have a fear of, and that I've turned into a fantasy to cope with it. I guess I'm afraid that if I ever mentioned this to a partner, they'd get turned on by it ...

There are no thought police and one need not have their identity decided by what they fantasize about. In all most all cases, except child pornography, one is judged not by what they think, but by one's actions. Or as a girl I used to date once said "I can't be held to anything I said during sex ...

I'm a young guy, that's just come out to friends and family as bisexual. (so I'm already feeling vulnerable about that)

For a year or two now, I've had times where I've fantasised about castration or penectomy by a dominating partner, or about doing it to someone else myself, or about having a ...