Hello Frida. I've followed some of your posts and I sympathize with your motivation. But I wish you would consider this material I dug up. From some studies done in the last few years the same issues exist for f2m folks who have zeroed out

all estrogen.

*From a couple of places but this link has a ...

I think gender dysphoria has a tight grip on you and having this last bit still generating testosterone is making you loose focus on the big picture. If you desire gender transition focus on the finishing line. If you have SRS / GRS that pea sized part of you will be in the hospital bin anyway. If ...

In regards to your father I think the issue is that he hasn't any understanding of the process. I imagine he thinks its just a chopping block and some lipstick. If there was a way to explain the entire process from a-z maybe he would understand its a lot more m2f then hacking off the penis. The part ...

When I was young in my 20s I would fantasize about getting 20 females pregnant.I kept my wife very pregnant during those years after trying everything not to get her pregnant.Just one mistake or slip up and she was

pregnant .Good thing I married her when I was 25.We would have 10 kids by the time ...

Talk to your urologist about getting a prescription for single use catheters. *Preferably the type that are prelubricated. Its not too difficult to use. You quickly get used to using them so don't freak out about them.

I know your having second thoughts on transition and your certainly didn't have your orchie to then go on testosterone but I would give serious consideration to trying Estrogen. Give it a shot for a month and see how you feel. You can still present yourself or ID yourself as male but Estrogen ...