I've planned to get genital surgery.

3 bilateral orchidectomy with scrotectomy. I'm thinking about penectomy too.

4 for present, i take gasodex

4b maybe a little of estrofem

Je vous comprends parfaitement, parce que je suis absolument comme vous: je n'aime pas mes testicules ni mon scrotum, et je désire beaucoup les faire enlever. Le problème est de se faire opérer par un vrai urologue dans des conditions professionnelles et sûres

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i've been chemically castrated what seems to be very effective:no more erection, penis shrunk dramaticaly. I think "genderfluid" is the best definition for me too.

Absolutely true! I've experienced zoladex (Goselerin). Injection of implant is not painful, but there are some side effects, like hotflashes, breast augmentation. I didnt feel particularly calm, but all interest for sex just vanished. If you want to be surgically castrated, to be on goserelin is an ...

10% boyish 90% girlish

After 6 months, castration and complete impotence. Hotflashes, gynecomasty, weight gain (except if you are on strict diet), penis is shrinking dramatically, libido is zero.

I'm chemically castrated since 4 years, and my T level is a menopaused woman's one. I've experienced hotflashes, dramatic shrinkage of penis, but no depression.