I prefer to have a Dr monitoring, that is the wise choice. The challenge is working thru the system. In the 3.5 months to get an endocrinologist followup I have been back on for 2 months and now off about 3 weeks.

Being raised out of your gender wrecks havoc on an individual's life. It is a tried ...

I have been messing around with blockers and fem hormones on/off for 20+ years. The entire time I kept my personal gender and sexual thoughts to myself.

Two years ago I began a social transition that involved a unique blend of masculine and feminized clothing. I confessed my sexual behavior and ...

yikes!!!!!!! a pshrink saying you may be conflicted. its not just that that is what they are paid to say, but i think it is inherent in their being. it is also damn obvious since why would you be seeing a pshrink if you are not conflicted? like… i love to smoke/i need to stop smoking or - want to ...

Showing off the legs, at the gym or riding the longboard is a kick. I mostly wear leggings so whether shaved or not is of little concern. As far as "shame" I think that is internalized, perhaps a symptom of disrupting the natural order and making others uncomfortable. I never allow myself to stand ...

It takes several weeks to decrease the testosterone, but it most definitely will zero your sex drive and free your mind. The only issue I have is fatigue and SOB, a SE of Androcur.

On again off again with Tblockers has been a path to insight, permitted the addressing of eunuch "childlike" behavior and a way to give my body time to adjust.

So this is my 4th trial, started about 2 months ago and after the return of a demonic sex drive that had me in full tranny mode devouring ...

RIP Uncle Flo

It is unfortunate that I have to end this trial much earlier than I have planned. The reason is that I am out of androcur for a week already and new order has not arrived yet, despite it should have been there already 3 weeks ago. Also Tamoxifen order was delayed for more than a month, but I ...

I still don't understand guys going back and redoing chemical castration tests. One test and trial should tell you if you can live without your nuts. Why not just lose them and be done with it. Once it's done, and you adjust to a new life, there isn't anything better than being nutless. I tried ...

Once again creating a disturbance on the California highways and biways, eh chili?



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