There are a number of movies that all the critics hated that I loved, and several that I absolutely hated that the critics thought was the greatest movie ever made.

Ah ... well, at least that nerfs my fear that somehow, while I was away, something in one of my posts earned me a nuking from an admin, heh.

Stupid self-loathing depression...

Labels are dumb, I know, but I wonder how many others on eunuch.org have a similar motive for seeking/desiring/already-accomplished castration: an unstable libido leaving one with a desire for sex but little performance and iffy moods.

The normal prescription, I guess, would be to boost ...

When I was last on eunuch.org (see my re-introduction post ... I guess my old account must have been idle purged or something), I think I tried to pretend a lot that I don't have the fetish fantasy, because, at least on these boards, my interest is more the serious reality, but I'd be lying to deny ...

Hrmm, idled for a few years, guess my old account got nicked.

Anyway, from the trickle of IM friend requests that still come from here, I guess a couple remember me from way back when.

This was to be the year, my goal year to have myself ready to get myself with chemical castration for a year to ...

So just to clarify, it was from his asthma and had nothing to do with his going through becoming a eunuch?

This is so shocking. I feel bad about going on hiatus from the site as I have ... from the brief time I was active I do remember Bboy warmly and vividly. It seems like every time I turn around ...

And P.S., is there a document that explains the bars thing? Does a "dark block" like mine indicate negative reputation or something?

Does that work in the chat room as well?

I like several of the people I run into at chat, but invariably *every* time I log onto chat and stay on longer than five minutes, someone comes on and PMs me asking me what I'm "into."

Gah! I'm not here looking for a date. I don't want or need a "lover" or ...

I don't even have a GP. :/ I'm working again so I won't qualify for any state benefits but I also don't get any from my employer, as I work through a temp agency.

Its hard to express how significant of an effect just finding this community and the terrific people in it has been. I'm still depressed, but its like the 1000 lb gorilla on my back suddenly only feels like 900 lbs, heh.